so they just posted this list on www.poolplayers.com. It is the list for the 8-Ball Classic National Singles event at the Riviera Hotel and Casino in  Las Vegas, Nevada.  Where i will be one of hundreds competing for $250,000 cash and prizes...

So here goes wish me luck even though my skill is gonna take me further...

PEace and LOVE

2009 APA 8-Ball Classic National Qualifiers

GREG ABERNATHEY SYLVANIA, OH

STEVEN ADKINS FRUITVALE, TX

SEAN AHLERS SAN DIEGO, CA

ERIC AIKEN LAKE WORTH, FL

ERIC ALBAN DAVIE, FL

KEARBY ALDRIDGE SHREVEPORT, LA

DAVID ALITO NORTH BABYLON, NY

LELAND ALLEN BERNALILLO, NM

KANDICE ALLEN STOCKBRIDGE, GA

JEREMY ALTON ST. LOUIS, MO

MISTY ANDERSON CHARLOTTE, NC

HEATHER ANDERSON EFFINGHAM, IL

JENNIFER ANDREW RALEIGH, NC

ERIC ANGLIN COLDWATER, MI

DAVID GABE APOLLOS GALLATIN, TN

TOM ARCHER REDMOND, WA

LOUIE ARSENAULT JENSEN BEACH, FL

OLGA AZAROVA SEATTLE, WA

PATRICIA BAKER PALATKA, FL

WESLEY BAKER OKLA. CITY, OK

FRANK BAKER, SR GREENBACK, TN

JOHNATHAN BALAN SAN DIMAS, CA

WILLY BALINTUCAS BROOMFIELD, CO

KEVIN JR BALLASH PORT ST LUCIE, FL

AVERY BARNARD MACON, GA

LONNIE BARNES COOLEEMEE, NC

TIMOTHY BARR FELTON, DE

WILLIAM BARRICKLOW JENSEN BEACH, FL

MARTIN BATES CAMARILLO, CA

AARON BATTERMAN BELLEVUE, NE

JAMES BAUGH MILLEDGEVILLE, GA

RON BEARD GARRETT, PA

BRIAN BELOBRADIC WHITBY, ON

BOB BENTLEY MILLINGTON, MD

JAMIE BERNARD HUNTINGTON BCH, CA

STACI BEZAK NEWTON FALLS, OH

JAMES BLACKBURN GREENSBORO, NC

MARLENE BLEMEL ALBQ, NM

ROBERT BLOCK TUCSON, AZ

JEREMY BLOEDON DENVER, CO

JO ANNA BLOUGH DANVILLE, IL

JAMIE BOGAN NORWICH, CT

JIM BOGIE CLARK, NJ

MIKE BOIVIN BRANDON, FL

CALEB BOLAND SEARSMONT, ME

HERB BONDS, JR. GALLOWAY, NJ

TERRY BORDERS INDIANAPOLIS, IN

JESUS BORJAS R. PALM BEACH, FL

ALICIA BORJAS R. PALM BEACH, FL

LARBI BOUDJEMAI NY, NY

KIRK BOYENS BELLEVUE, WA

PAUL BRADAC JOLIET, IL

SARAH BRADEEN SHREVEPORT, LA

CHARLES BRANAN TAMPA, FL

WAYNE BRANDENBURG MIDDLETOWN, OH

MICHAEL BRANDT PEORIA, IL

BRENT BRATCHER LOUISVILLE, KY

DENNIS BREWER NORTH GRANBY, CT

KENNETH BRISBON OXFORD, MI

TAMMY BROOKS ROCHESTER, NY

RICHARD BROPHY BALTIMORE, MD

TODD BROWN SIGNAL MTN., TN

RAMESH BROWN PICKERING, ON

MATTHEW BUCCOLA PORT ST. LUCIE, FL

JOHN BURCH ROCHESTER, NY

DEBI BURDESHAW PANAMA CITY BEACH, FL

DAVID BURGOS BRONX, NY

ALFORD BURKS N. LAS VEGAS, NV

BRETT BURMEISTER E. PEORIA, IL

RUSS BUSH NEWPORT BEACH, CA

SUSAN CADWELL HURST, TX

JOE CALABRO PELHAM, NH

FRANCIS CAMAQUIN S. SAN FRANCISCO, CA

DALE CAMPBELL WINTER GARDEN, FL

CAROL CANNON ARLINGTON, TX

DAVID CANTRELL WOODSTOCK, GA

LUIS CARDOZA RIDGELAND, SC

TESHA CAREY N.CHARLESTON, SC

DONEALL CARLTON MT. OLIVE, NC

PHILIP CARR FREEHOLD, NJ

RYAN CARTER ANKENY, IA

JENNIFER CHAMBERS GRAY, GA

JAMES CHAMBERS SPARTANBURG, SC

MARILYN CHAPMAN FAYETTEVILLE, NC

MILIANNE CHIN SAN FRANCISCO, CA

JENNIFER CHRISTENSEN GARDEN GROVE, CA

WHITLEY CISCO IVOR, VA

JOANNE CLARK CORTLAND, NY

DENNIS CLARKE BROADBROOK, CT

PATRICK CLEMENTS ORLANDO, FL

STEPHEN CLERICUZIO PLAISTOW, NH

DWIGHT CODLING WINDSOR, CT

BARBARA COLE ROCHESTER, NY

RICHARD COLEMAN CORDOVA, SC

CLYDE COLEY, JR. PINEVILLE, NC

ELIZABETH COOK HOPKINS, SC

JOSHUA COOK MOHAWK, NY

RICH COPECHAL ST. PETERSBURG, FL

DAN CORDOVA LOCKPORT, IL

CARLO CORONEL SAN FRANCISCO, CA

JUDITH COSTIGAN LONDONDERRY, NH

WILLIAM COURTRIGHT SAN FRANCISCO, CA

DAVID CRAWFORD OCALA, FL

RACHEL CROWELL WANTAGE, NJ

JOEL CUMMINGS OCEANSIDE, CA

SHARON CUNNINGHAM SANFORD, NC

JOSEPH DALEY DALTON, MA

SUE DAVIS SPARTANBURG, SC

TIM DAVIS SAN DIEGO, CA

JOSE DE JESUS BAKERSFIELD, CA

FRANK DE LA CRUZ TUCSON, AZ

BLAINE DEBYAH MILLS, WY

NELLIE DEL ROSARIO CHULA VISTA, CA

RUSSELL DELEON MORENO VALLEY, CA

HENRY DEMASCO MANORVILLE, NY

PATTY DIETZ DECATUR, AL

CORY DILLOW OMAHA, NE

BRENT DOHSE NEOLA, IA

TED DOYLE MOUNTAIN VIEW, CA

MICHAEL DRAKE HERMITAGE, TN

DAVID DREIDEL YORKVILLE, NY

CRIEGH DUMO BONNEY LAKE, WA

SHAWN DUPONT BLAINE, MN

GLEN DURBIN COLORADO SPRINGS, CO

DONALD DVORAK BALTIMORE, MD

RICHARD ECHOLS HOT SPRINGS, AR

AMY ENCINIAS LAS VEGAS, NV

MONICA ENCISO FREDERICK, MD

JON ESSELSTROM BELLEVUE, WA

BILL ETCHEVERRY CARROLLTON, TX

SHAWN EVANS CHERRY HILL, NJ

PHIL FARRIS HAMILTON, OH

MARK FEDERICI WINTER SPRINGS, FL

REBECCA FELDS GREENSBORO, NC

SCOTT FISHER NAPPANEE, IN

BRAD FLORIAN COUNCIL BLUFFS, IA

MONICA FORREST DALLAS, TX

STEVE FRANKS COLLEGE PARK, GA

CHRIS FRAZAO TRUMBULL, CT

EDWIN FROST LEXINGTON, SC

MICHAEL FULLER ROXBORO, NC

GARY GADDIS WINDER, GA

TERRY GAISER BAKERSIFELD, CA

WILLIAM GALLAGHER, JR. GLOUCESTER, NJ

OLGA GASHKOVA BROOKLYN, NY

GEORGE GEDDES ZANESVILLE, OH

ANTHONY GIANNETTO EAST MORICHES, NY

JOHN GLOWACKI MCLEAN, VA

PHILIP GOLDSTEIN FAIRFAX STATION, VA

RENE GOMEZ EDINBURG, TX

TONY GONG CHICAGO, IL

BART GOODE WYOMING, MI

CHRISTIE GOSNEIGH WEIRSDALE, FL

LISA GREATHOUSE PARKMAN, OH

JAMES GREEN TITUSVILLE, FL

TED MINH GREENHUT KEYSTONE HEIGHTS, FL

JOHNNY GRIFFIN CARY, NC

JAMIE GUAJARDO CREST HILL, IL

ERNEST GUERRA FULSHEAR, TX

WENDY HALL LEXINGTON, SC

OLIVER HAMM BROOKLYN, NY

TERRY HAMMOND SEVERN, MD

JAMES HANNA NY, NY

DEBORAH HANSEN WALDEN, NY

ERIC HARADA SANTA CLARA, CA

JOHN HARDIMAN BRAINTREE, MA

MEGAN HARDIN SAN ANTONIO, TX

ELTON HARDY RALEIGH, NC

WILLIAM HARRIGAN BURLESON, TX

ROBERT HAZEMEY ARLINGTON, VA

RICKY HEADDEN ORANGEBURG, SC

BRIAN HEARL NEWTON, IA

IVAN HENDERSON MORENO VALLEY, CA

JIMMY HENDRICKSEN WILLIS, TX

KYLE HENDRICKSON SILVER SPRING, MD

CHAD HEPLER OREGON CITY, OR

JON HICKMAN JACKSON, MS

PAI HIRASUNA BOTHELL, WA

MARK HOBBS FOLOSOM, LA

COLEEN HODGES LODGEPOLE, NE

CHARLES HODSON TAUNTON, MA

KAREN HOHL RIVERSIDE, CA

ARTHUR HOSHAUER READING, PA

JEFFREY HOUGHTON ALBANY, NY

PHILIP HOUSER HAZELTON, PA

ARMANDO HUERTA-MENDOZA VANCOUVER, WA

TIMMY HURLEY CHICOPEE, MA

GWEN HUTCHISON EDON, OH

RONALD HYMAN SPARTA, GA

JOHN INCIARRANO BROOKLYN, NY

BRANDON INGLE MARYVILLE, TN

GARY JACKSON GERVAIS, OR

ISAAC JACQUEZ ALBUQUERQUE, NM

MICHAEL JAECK WHITEHOUSE, OH

MICHAEL JAMES WAPP FALLS, NY

THOMAS JAROLIK HOLLAND, TX

KEVIN JONES SCHENECTADY, NY

JERRY JONES BALTIMORE, MD

MARLON JONES BELLEVUE, WA

KEVIN JONES FONTANA, CA

JOSHUA JONES DES MOINES, IA

ULYESSES JONES AUSTELL, GA

KENNETH JONES SAN ANTONIO, TX

STEVE JORDAN KNOXVILLE, TN

MELBA JUSTICE ARAB, AL

STEVEN JUSTIS AUSTELL, GA

RICHARD KAGAWA, JR RAEFORD, NC

JASON KANE NY, NY

BRITTANY KAVAL WINTER PARK, FL

CRIS KELLER EAST PALATKA, FL

CHRIS KETTER WOODINVILLE, WA

THOMAS KINCAID PINELLAS PARK, FL

JAMES KING OKEECHOBEE, FL

PETER KOFARAGO FAIRVIEW HGTS, IL

ANDREI KOLESNIK WALNUT CREEK, CA

DOUGLAS KRUS PEORIA, IL

RANDY KUKLA HENDERSON, NV

MIKE KURPICSKI MILLERSVILLE, MD

SCOTT LABELLE SANDOWN, NH

MARTA LAMONICA SAN DIEGO, CA

JOHN LANFORD FLORENCE, SC

THERESA LANG PACIFICA, CA

PAUL LANGLEY SAN DIEGO, CA

JAMES LAO ROSEMEAD, CA

TONY LAUDADIO AUSTIN, TX

WILLIAM LAVIOLETTE TROY, NY

LEE LAWRENCE GLENDALE, AZ

BRIAN LAWTON SHAMOKIN, PA

SHERON LEACH TAYLORS, SC

MICHAEL LEAHY GARDEN GROVE, CA

DAVID LEE DICKERSON, MD

MATTHEW LEVINE PALM BEACH GARDENS, FL

ESTON LEWIS DANVILLE, VA

JERRY LIN NORTHRIDGE, CA

DON LINCOLN ORLANDO, FL

EDDIE LITTLE SALISBURY, NC

JOHN LITTLE FRANKLINVILLE, NJ

GREGORY LOCKE TORONTO, ON

DAVID LYONS MOORESVILLE, NC

LISA MANGINO BERLIN, NJ

CARLA MANN FORT WASHAKIE, WY

CHARLES MAPLETHORPE WASHINGTON, DC

BRANDON MARSH OMAHA, NE

MARTIN MARTUSCELLI WEST PALM BEACH, FL

BILL MASNEY HOUSTON, TX

RANDY MASON SHREVEPORT, LA

JIM MAUER CARROLLTON, TX

PETER MAYER NEW YORK, NY

DONALD MAYO HOUSCHTON, GA

CHRIS MAZE VICKSBURG, MI

MICAEL MCCABE FULLERTON, CA

ANDREA MCCAIN OMAHA, NE

BOB MCCULLOCH MOUNT FOREST, ON

ADAM MCKEAN KENTWOOD, LA

ANDREW MCNALLY GUELPH, ON

DENNIS MCNULTY WINCHESTER, MA

WAYNE MCPHERSON CHESAPEAKE, VA

ERNEST MEADE, JR BURLINGTON, NC

LEV MELNIKOV BRONX, NY

DANIEL MERCADO MCALLEN, TX

DAVE MERKER CHARLOTTESVILLE, VA

JOSEPH MEUSE SANFORD, ME

SCOTT MIDDLEHURST GRAND VALLEY, ON

SHAWN MILES AVOCA, PA

DAVID MILLER RICHWOOD, OH

MATHEW MILLER KOKOMO, IN

CHRISTOPHER MILLER LAFAYETTE, LA

JOHN MITCHELTREE GRAFTON, VA

DAWN MIZE CHARLOTTE, NC

STEVEN MOCARSKI JERSEY CITY, NJ

KATHRYN MOCHEL HIGH POINT, NC

DOUGLAS MOE EASTON, CT

VINCENT MONDRY BAYONNE, NJ

KRISTEN MOON TRUSSVILLE, AL

DANIEL MOONEY HUNTERSVILLE, NC

CHRISTOPHER MOORE DUPO, IL

GARY MOORE KNOXVILLE, TN

NATHAN MOORE CLINTON TWP, MI

MISSY MOORE NORCROSS, GA

RICHARD MORALES TOLEDO, OH

MARK MORGAN SIGNAL MOUNTAIN, TN

PAUL MULLINS CHARLOTTE, NC

BYRON NEBLETT PADUCAH, KY

LAURITA NELSON PORTLAND, OR

NICOLE NETHERLAND CHESHIRE, CT

JORDAN NEWMAN PORT NECHES, TX

PHILLIP NEWTON BESSEMER, AL

JEREMY NICHOLS ORANGE, TX

ANTHONY NORGARD FAYETTEVILLE, NC

RICHARD NOTTAGE ALTAMONTE SPRGS, FL

RICHARD OHNSTAD DALLAS, OR

RONALD OLIVER ARLINGTON, TX

JASON OLNEY VIRGINIA BEACH, VA

MANUEL ORINO WOODBRIDGE, VA

DOUGLAS OTTO ORLANDO, FL

BRIAN PARKS BAKERSFIELD, CA

GREG PARTLOW NY, NY

MIKE PASSWATERS SEAFORD, DE

JASON PATEL SCARBOROUGH, ON

CANDY PAULSEN KING, NC

JAMES PELLERIN SUDBURY, ON

LAWRENCE PERILLI STATEN ISLAND, NY

JARED PERKINS ORANGE, TX

HOWIE PERMAR JENSEN BEACH, FL

DAWN PETERS NEW BADEN, IL

DANIEL PETRALBA SHERMAN OAKS, CA

WALTER PETTY MALDEN, MA

CHRISTOPHER PHILLIPS PERKINS, MO

HEATHER PLATTER GAINESVILLE, FL

JENNIFER POLLETT PORT ST LUCIE, FL

CYNTHIA POOLEY MANAKIN SABOT, VA

BRUCE POU COOPER CITY, FL

SAMUEL POULOS COSCOB, CT

JOHN POWERS YONKERS, NY

JOSEPH PRESSEY WALL, NJ

CALVIN PRESTON SMITHFIELD, SC

JAMES PRITCHETT JR SALEM, NJ

JACE RAFTER NY, NY

ALEX RAMIREZ ROSENBERG, TX

GARY RAMSEY ARLINGTON, VA

P'ABU RASHEED CHICAGO, IL

TYLER RATLIFF HUDSON, OH

MICKEY RAY BRANDON, MS

JOHN RAY GLENWOOD, AR

CALVIN REED LEESBURG, FL

ERNESTO REYES DALY CITY, CA

BOBBY RHYMER LANDRUM, SC

DONNIE RICHARDSON BUERSHEBA SPGS, TN

SANTIAGO RIOS, JR FAYETTEVILLE, NC

JANET RIZZO STATEN ISLAND, NY

KENNETH ROBERTS RIO MEDINA, TX

JUSTIN ROBERTSON LOGANVILLE, GA

ROY ROBERTSON INDEPENDENCE, LA

RICHARD ROBSON PHILADELPHIA, PA

DOMINGOS RODRIGUES HARRISON, NJ

RYAN ROGERS GUELPH, ON

JOHN ROGERS OCALA, FL

DANA ROGERS OCALA, FL

BONNIE ROLAND BAKERSFIELD, CA

RICHARD ROLLS, JR BELLEVUE, NE

MICHAEL ROSENBAUM ANDERSON, IN

MICHAEL ROSENBERG LEMAY, MO

STAN ROSSETTI MADISON, AL

DAVID ROWELL BIRMINGHAM, AL

KEN RUBIN ORLANDO, FL

MARGARITA RUBIN ORLANDO, FL

JOHN RUGGIERO NORTHPORT, NY

MICHAEL RYAN JOLIET, IL

ERIK SABAITIS BRONSON, MI

ERGUN SAHIN ARLINGTON, VA

JOHN SALYER PORTLAND, OR

MICHAEL SANCHEZ GARLAND, TX

CARLOS SANTIBANEZ SALEM, OR

BENNY SCHAPERO III LAS VEGAS, NV

MICHAEL SCHOTT INDIAN TRAIL, NC

CHRIS SEIFRIED MOUNT FOREST, ON

VONDA SELLERS BAKERSFIELD, CA

DANAVAN SENIOR HARTFORD, CT

JEFF SERGENT

Kyle,

I know i haven't told you face to face yet, but i LOVE you... I don't think i will ever feel or find a love like this...  I cherish every minute i have with you and i will never be lonely because of what you have shown me. You know thats why you came back into my life. When this life wanted to keep us apart you called me back to your heart.  You are the only one that knows me, I love it when you hold me, I will never find a love like this, Im so glad you found me wrap your world around me I'll never find a love like this.  Thats how much i love you.  so much i need.  Almost everythin you do makes me wanna smile.  But i hate it that you know exactly what to do so that i cant stay mad at you.  I cant stand how much i need you.  you completly know the power that you have.  Its not fair that you take advantage of the fact that i need you beyond a reason why.  One of these days maybe your kiss wont make me weak... So much i love, so much i need you, and I HATE how much i love you boy that i wont ever let you go. 

I would do anything for my man cause you blow me away.  You inspire me from the heart.  Anything you want i want to cater to u.  cant nothin tear us apart your all I want in a man...

 

Baby i know these are lyrics but it fits to a T how much i care about you and the way i care for you... I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH IT HURTS MOST DAYS...

 

I hope someday soon you will read this cause i dont know how soon i will be able to say this...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

Heather Nicole

To Kathy,

I love you sooooooo much. I am sooooooooo GLAD you decided to go out tonight. I AM SSSSOOOORRRRRYYY we had to cut it short cuz you was sick hope you feel better soon.  I am thankful everyday that i have you in my life... Stay the way you are cuz i wouldnt have you any other way

 

LOVE you Always

Rainbow Bright

Do you know what it is like to be tapped into someone else's mind that you are constantly thinking of the same thing at the same time, that you start to say something and they finish it? Do you know how it feels to want to say something and be scared to say it but never have to because  the other person says it first.  What does it mean when two people can interact in every way imaginable but never have to say anything because they just know the other is thinking & feeling exactly same.   To get chills because of some thought in your mind and at that exact moment hear that thought come out of someone else's mouth!!! If you know what i am saying, it's almost to wicked but so right in every sense of the matter. 

Is that love? Is that Destiny?  Is that a sign that you are walking the right path in life? Is it coincidence?  Is it just chance or Luck? Or is it crazy of me to even think any of the above?

 

I am not sure about the questions above, but I am positive that the way kyle and i are linked is special.  every time it happen it makes me feel crazy and i almost freak out so bad i want to scream not because its a bad thing.  Only because this happens between us everyday.  It doesn't matter if we're talking, watching tv, shopping, partying we are constantly tapped into one another and it scares the shit out of me.  I have only experienced this kind of mentally linked shit with a few other people but never like this...  It sometimes feels overwhelming but i love it.  I think the reason it's so scary and sometimes overwhelming is because it is right, i am in love, I've just never felt it like this.  I have never experienced so much of it in so little time.

 

So today could possibly be known as the best day i have had all year... I got to talk to Kyle today and he asked me to come back home...  And i said YES.  I know in my heart and mind where i want to be and that is totally with him...  He has my heart and as much as i tried to ignore it i could not and i don't want to... so i won't but what i do want is him and his kisses and his touch and his smile, affection, attention, love, time and friendship but most importantly I WANT HIM... SO HIM IS WHAT  I AM GOING TO GET...  It's like this, as much as i have missed him when he told me he wanted me to come back to him i got sick to my stomach because i was overflowing with emotions i had been trying to forget. it is great to know i don't have to try and deny what my heart wants anymore...  SO everyone i love back home when you see KYLE let em' know he did the right thing cause GOD knows i already have...

To those of you back home i will See you all soon,

To Kyle thank you for being the man that you are and for wanting me as much as i do you... More importantly thank you for letting me know and for not letting me just walk away from all that i love...

PEace and LOVE  

 

Heather 'MOTHA FUCKIN' Anderson

 

aka

Shatterbitch 420

RIGHT NOW GREEN DAY'S TIME OF YOUR LIFE IS PLAYING THIS IS SO FREAKING ME OUT...

KARMA IS AROUND IN THIS PRESENT MOMENT...

this blog was for one purpose to thank all of you for sharing my lofe with me through viewin my pics...  I spent the last ten mins going through the photos i have posted remembering where why with who they were all taken. then i had the pleasure of reading the thoughts you had after seeing them and it honestly makes me a better person to have so much joy and feel so loved.  In return I thank you remember to always have the time of your life and if it feels like you can't think of me cause you are constantly a part of my life I'm Here for you...

 

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART,

I love you

333 HNA 333

Hey peeps,

it's been a minute since i came to myspace so i thought i'd say High everyone and let you all know i'm alive and well.  If you have been worried stop i'm fine, if you have been missin me call or come see me, if you love me let me know and if you don't i'm sorry bout your luck... anyway love you all lots and promise i'll come to myspace way more often...

 

 

xoxoxoxoxoxox

to you all... 

 

 

333 stay elite ALL and if your not get there 333

 

 

 

 

in case your wondering i'm grateful for Kathy right now...

First of All Shattermask is playin at twisters in Van on Friday with two sets one at 9:00 and the other 10:30!!!  You better come if you can.

I am currently single and in love with life...  I thought i might let everyone know that i am happy with who am today and what i am doing with my life... I am currently really excited of where i am going soon...

I wanted every one to know I am done and over all the crap, so please lets leave at that...

Much love

Peace

 

 

WWWooooooo hhhoooooooo.... Go CUBS GO CUBS oh YEAH We are going to the world series, Hot Damn Cubs Fans this is it... Say bye bye to that 100 Year curse. How about this team can you say red hot red hot ooohhh ooohh ooohh. Man i wish i was in Wrigley Ville right now... Cause I know the Chi is already partying off the chain...


Always and Forever a DIe Hard Cubs Fan

Rainbow Bright

I am trying my best to get over what my ex-fiance and ex-best friend did behind my back.  I know that i have forgiven and forgot a lot but i still think about it and it still hurts so bad... I loved these two people more than anything i have ever loved and my brain wont quit asking why they did it.  I know it won't quit because i never got any answers all i got was left behind.  He sent a five year relationship down the drain and she shit on our three years of friendship by cheating on me and no one ever gave up any answers... I think that is whats the hardest... I thought they cared and i know i do...It blows balls because i sometimes wish i was more like them, able to break hearts in order to find my own happiness but i'm not like them.  thats not to say anything bad because i'm happy for them if eachother is what they want.  I just could have had happiness and peace of mind if someone would have told me anything at all...So don't forget if you care tell em', if you don't fuck it tell em'. Cause think what if it were me wouldn't i want to know? Don't lie either cause everyone knows in the back of their minds the answer is yes.   In the end its best not to forget because then you have learned nothing.