(it'd be a free verse, since it hard to translate from russian into english with right rhyme)
No… I'm not afraid to die today, I saw this life on every side
I've made one step closer to death, oh god…I need to hide.
But it's too late, I felt that bitter taste…there is no point of return…
I will be soon in hell… Some voices in my head turn on….
And nothing can be changed…I've made my choice…I'm going away,
All colors seem to be as one, I have a great migraine...
Tomorrow never comes, I'm loosing everyday….
I've lost my hopes…I have nothing, I'm runing away
But wait! I don't want to die like this….
I don't want to loose this place
But where is my pain?! Where is my flame?!
Where did they go?! Don't leave me alone!!!
I ruin everything…I killed myself?!
You can't reborn, you can't cheat the death
You have already choose the wrong path
My spirit is crying, my body is dying
My spirit is screaming, and soon will be leaving
The heart is groaning with its pain, but there is no other way…
Your hands are shaking with cold, your mind just gone away
You felt on the ground…no hopes, no lies, no cry, no life…
Your eyes turned black, your spirit just gone…
And your body is dead…feelings hurt
I opened my eyes…and saw the hell… To be honest – I'm not well