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College is going pretty well. I've learned so much in such a short time. I'm taking good care of myself. I do my own laundry, fold clothes, make sure I eat, do homework. I got a B- on my first college English paper. It's really cool. I'll see how I do on my rewrite.

My friend Ryan got mugged last week...across the street from our dorm. It's a scary thought.

Anyway,

I wrote a bulletin, that I'm going to copy here. I think it's important.

*Am I being pathetic?*

I've been thinking a lot lately. I'm growing so much here in college, but I'm missing my old friends even more. There's something wonderful about thinking about old times, and for this, I'm writing to some of you.

C.C., Tiffiny, and all my elementary school friends: Do you remember the swing at Bardin? I used to sing "Somewhere over the rainbow" as I rocked back and forth. CSC was our "singing group" and we sang "Ain't No Rainbow (when your gone)" just because we wrote it.

Emily, Junior, Noel, Vero, and all the Firehouse people: You were there for me during horrid private school. You were there when I performed for the first times, and we all grew up together. It was all about Bob Seger, Mariah Carey, Linkin Park (JR!), and Guys and Dolls. I wish we kept in better contact.

To the cast of Rocky Horror '05: Although unintentional, I think this bulletin was mostly for you. I was this...innocent girl in front of you all. And it was only last year. You all seemed so...superior...so much cooler, so much more knowledged...so...out of my league friendship-wise....at least from my point of view. And yet, you all were so nice to me. Thank you. Thank you so much. My greatest wish is to keep in contact with you all. I only hope that you wish to keep in contact with me.


I miss you, past friends of mine.

Um...where do I begin...

I graduated June 15th as Alisal's Valedictorian. I've been in the newspaper a bunch for it. It's cool I guess...I think people care about it more than I do...But it's okay...they give me presents...oh...My grad speech was good. I liked it.

I'm currently dating again. If you didn't know already: his name's Brandon, he graduated from Alisal too, and he's awesome.

I got a new kitty, Charlie. He's currently in the "I'm going to attack you" stage, but he's super cute...See?

I'm sharing a puppy with Brandon. My friend Natasha rescued it. To tell the story further.

Me and Brandon have a puppy.

We named her BURKLEE (like Cal, but spelled differently for originality)

She lives at Brandon's house.

But I visit her EVERY day.

THE END

Would you have thunk it? Probably not. So, I'm taking this time to explain.

James is a great guy. He's so close to me, and I want to continue to stay friends. But...I needed to move on. Without going into a lot of personal details, I felt that we both needed time apart to grow. I hope...I PRAY...that he'll forgive me...for everything I've done, and for all the things I haven't.

Is there someone else that I have in mind? Yes. Are me and this other person going to be together? Yeah, I'm pretty sure. Does that make me look bad? Probably. But, once again, I needed to move on. I needed to see who else was out there for me. I couldn't pledge my life to someone while my mind--my heart--was wondering what if.

And so, conflicted, confused, and crying; I made my decision. God help me.

James came to see me yesterday. It was Easter, and our 1 year anniversary...'Twas wicked cool. He made me get out of bed in the morning, cuz he came so damn early...Like 8:45...but... It was awesome. He saw me in my "I just woke up" look. And he still said I was gorgeous...He's so awesome.

We walked to McDonald's and then hung out at my house for a few hours, just being together and watching TV...

Around 1:30 ish, we went to my aunt's house. He met most of my big ass family--i'm pretty sure they liked him--, hid eggs for the little kids with me, ate mucho comida, and was my partner in the egg toss...We got 3rd place! But then the egg rolled on the cement and got a bit cracked. We threw it again anyway..I got egg on me...It was fun.

Then we went to the movies and saw Scary Movie 4. It was pretty good.

And then me, him, my sister, Natasha, and Polina went bowling. That was cool too. James was like "I'm a horrible bowler" and he was the best out of all of us...lol...He's good at like...everything.

He stayed till around 11:30 pm and then he made his long hour and a half journey back to Hayward.

I miss him...but it was super cool!

I'm happy again.

--Steph

Hi all!

I got back from Riverside on Sunday. I had a vundeba time being President. It was like...everyone cared what I thought. I was important, and respected...Totally cool

I did speeches and sang the National Anthem in front of the 2000 or so people that were there. I met Mr. Tim Lawrence...National Executive Director of SkillsUSA...He was really down to earth for being such a VIP. I was the tour guide for some Toyotal Racing Development people. One of them made me a balloon animal.

..well there are so many stories to tell. (I got hit on by like 10 different groups of guys...Half of them invited me to the pool...or to "kick it" lol....It was a little weird.)

Anywho, I was gone for a week, so if you all didn't realize I was gone you're a bit stupid.

That's all for now!

--Me

Addendum (April 12th):

Here are pics of my travels.

 

 
Me and Schlumpberger

Wade looking all grrrr

 
Justin

 
Gilbert Vallez pretending to be superman

Gilbert V. getting his ass kicked by Cassandra

 

FIN.

James came to see me today...I met his dad...he's cool...We went to Cannery Row...It was fun...We ate at Bubba Gump and then I got my face painted, because I'm cool like that...

Then we played pool at the Blue Fin...I'm not all that good at pool, but that's okay...'Twas wonderful to see my love...

Since he has a car now, he may just come see me again next week *crosses fingers*

That's all I have to say about that...*smiles*

--Me

Good news: I got accepted to UC Irvine

Neutral news: I'll probably never go there.

Bad news: I'm still depressed (see below blog)

Miscellaneous news: You all probably don't care.

 

--The end