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Street Fighter: the Story Of Chun Li
Well this feel a lil’ in the 1995 Street Fighter catagorey L sorry to say but why cant you guys that have the power make a street fighter like the scene in Jackie Chan’s City Hunter that still to me is the best rendition of street Fighter live action.
X-Men Origins: Wolverine
Loved it! Danny drove me into Ukiah to see it! Was very well done! Grrreat battle sequences. L.S. awesome as Saber tooth, and The Blob and Ryan Reynolds and, and, well… just see it to judge it oh Kaye ;-)
Star Trek
This was wonder full, Danny drove us into Eureka to see it opening night, really wished my pops was there but he also saw it opening weekend in Bend with cousins, first off I otally dig Chekov but he did not come into the series and or time line till second season, but grrreat sword sequence with “Harold” as Sulu
Terminator Salvation
This WAS what I always talked with Jeff Dawn about when he’d come over, me busting out theissues that were beautifully fallowed in this film, thank you,
The Land Of The Lost
Now first of note: I only went to see this movie to see Spencer as a Slee Stack, but also I watched as a kid, crushed on pig tail girl always saying “Chaka” cute in her flannel shirt, but they did do great throw backs to the tv show kudos on that but…
Street Fighter IV Review:
Note: I’ve been playing Street Fighter since 1986, went to tournament(note street fighter album in my pix) in 1990 and thanks to my cousin David I also own an original, glitches included, version of Street Fighter II J (Thank You) Since the first one I played at a family fun center aka golf n stuff in so cal there were to “punchable” pads for punch and kick and a joystick and then 1989 my friend Danny had the TuirbO GrafiX 16 CD, which had a tittle Fighting Street aka Street Fighter, then in the arcades and 7 elevens and circle Ks Street Fighter II had all the kids of all the circles at school Geeks, Skaters, punks, Dweebs, jocks, stoners and Joe Colleges, eight world warriors had the eyes of them all at one point or another, Danny and I were hooked and would do chores for money just to change it to quarters or tokens to go n play the game and be ‘The Best World Warrior‘…now with the release of Street Fighter IV I saw and tasted a lil’ sneak peak at Comic con 2008, and went nuts telling the guy my thoughts and opinions of the one match I played, then seeing and hearing who’s in it who might be in it and now as I’ve unlocked the character am very pleased with who’s in the game, of course very happy to have Sakura, and Cammy, Akuma, and Goken, and in the credits when you beat it they show you the Japanese OG names and the English ones J thank you for proving y or he any of those Americans that had doubt in me, about M. Bison means Mike Tyson J whom by the way I tear it up with, I’m not big on Rufus, or El Fuerte’ But to like Abel and am fine tunning my skills with Crimson Viper, which was a figurine enclosed with my Special edition version of the game and also had a DvD and Music CD, speaking of music the soundtrack is cool with the exception of the poppy n sync-ish tittle song blahh yuck. Now what I do wanna boast about is the Art Work!!! I am so pleased with it that I turn the HUD off just to see more of the art, plus it is challenging not to see your meters would be cool if CAPCOM worked with Team Ninja & TECMO to make a Street Fighter with fluent DOA movement and stage effect and 3Dness yes I want an all out EVERY single Street Fighter Character in one game but animated “Real” like DOA girls are
Getting My MJ Card
I made my appointment, paid for a doctor’s visit, was one hundred percent honest and boom walked out waited two weeks for card in mail and I gotta tell you I can tell the stress that has lifted from me as far as I can get MJ like meds as far as I have the money I go get it as opposed to waiting waiting and front itng etc etc
Driving Insured feels so good a major plus to the confidence builder. Not always stress about what ifs renwal in July
Earning Money again makes me feel a lil more independent(as in people are still kicking down and helping) can’t wait to be in my own place and have SAG job and or SXGER and STiXone become a reality,
M’s Comments
Michael P Lawler is Missing "M" really REALLY Bad lately dreamin' and thinking i see around town sadness overcomes me and consumes. NOTE: (061409) Still even since this post I’m having several dreams here on the farms of posativness of Madeline
Really I've been doing good all focused on Montreal and Florida Plans
Swear to god I saw her just the other day, but dismissed it!! Comment - LikeUnlike - Show Feedback (5)Hide Feedback (5) NOTE: at this time I’m in a cabin with no Internet~STX You're fucking crazy, It's been how many years. You need to get over it and besides, Madeline's fixed, she can't have anymore kids. LOL. Burn and she's MARRIED. LOL What is this grade school? Ha ha neener neener my sister’s fixed and married so double burn, yeah put that in your pipe and smoke it, right? Well in all my negativeness I’ve learned as I’ve grown older how to try to find posativeness in anything, so when I look for it here I see kool Madeline is Happy with someone and married so much envy I have for her makes me try to think of her in her beautiful wedding dress and seeing her smile, and a thought enters my mind weather the rings were silver or gold, Madeline knows what I mean Hey, this is Madeline. I'm writing this under Trish's book, cuz I've blocked you. It's been how many years and what I really should do is get a hold of your sister and tell her to convince you to get over it. The best thing that you can do is to go to Florida and Monteral and never look back. It wouldn't be a cold day in hell, it's just not going to happen. I have moved on and you need to move on PERIOD!!! You live in the past on past hope and fantasies. If you have had any chances of being happy, you're stupid for not moving forward in your life. It really bothers me to see the pictures that you obsesse over and drawings. You're going to be how old this year. They do offer help for these type of things. It bothers me to know that I have a daughter that looks the same age as ARIEL and you obsessed over that. I've moved on and I bet that you're still living at home with daddy, not working, being a mooch off of you're friends, doing the same shit and it's obvious that you haven't changed If indeed this IS Madeline, you just gave me that one percent that I was counting on, thank you. This December 10th will be 15 years since your sister brought you into my life, and still thankful to her and the powers that be for that day. In this duration of time with out you everything runs together as far as man tracking time, my memories and dreams of you are so strong I have to look in the mirror just remind me of the time that has passed. I wish I could see how life has aged and shaped you into the woman and mother and now wife you become maybe these new memories of you getting older will help disolve those of you in 1994 1995 1996 1997 1999 2000 2001 2002 2003, but I LOVE those Memories cause though you are gone they make ,e happy and warm just like the day the were made, and I need all the happenieess in the world I can find to sedate the demon I’ve become since loosing you the things that I do find to be happy about never out weight the ones of you and at the end of each day these are what first come to my mind. And I did listen to you in 1997 not to wait for you tried to “Move On” and as far as you should tell my sister, tell me your words are the strongest in my mind next to my mother and father… Note: Madeline’s daughter is 12 years old, so her saying it bothers her that ARIEL(yes note she capsed her name) looks the same age as her daughter even Madeline thinks Ariel is under age, Come on she’s legally in Hustler’s Barely Legal, and was just on Showtime AVN Awards as a Nominee And as far as living with daddy still and being a mooch off my friends doing the same shit and haven’t changed, I HATE living at home Oh Kaye!!!! I’m shamed of it every time I get taken out to the clubs or even if a girl shows the slight bit of interest. But Madeline’s words for some reason hurt and stay hurting, but in not giving a flock of sea gulls I didn’t care if I lived at home but since 2000 I’ve tried to accept no more Madeline cool but still wanted to try to get back together but then Jan 15 2003 came along and then Feb 14th 2003 and pretty much threw my hands in the air and gave up completely, catch was told Madeline not to worry would never kill myself after doing it in 1996, so my mind trying to be clever(gee li9ke no one thought of this) I know I’ll just fuck school cause I can’t get the girl I want the carrer to co exist with as husban and wife so hey lets get our hands on anything and everything well gee what is hitting Bend, OR at this time, good old yucky nasty METH so I figured I’ll rot away on this shit right and almost did but found a picture of a girl on the internet and then thought hey wait a minute and like in the Care Bears movies no longer was I professor cold heart but I started to care again then Came October 2006…but that’s another chapter ;-) but back to what “M” has said as far as mooching off friends…ATTENTION To ALL FRIENDS OF Michael Patrick Lawler aka STX or StiX, STOP!!! Right Now No more kick downs I have read these words of “M” for 4 months now and I realize the truth in it (god I love you Madeline, thank you) now hear me out on this, like Robocop it’s my prime directive to listen to her, but I think she’s trying to say between my pops and my friends though I greatly appreciate it you all and eachin your own ways have made it pretty plush to float through the last 6 years between food, buds, driving me like a taxi for free I guess its also like in Batman begins “why do fall down so we can learn to pick OURSELVES up” and I think that you guys need me to fall and pick myself up instead of always being the by my side to pick me up, I truly need you to stay by my side to be able to see me stand up on my on even if its just to be knocked down again, I used to think how do I get all my friends and family to let me die, and now I think its not to die but to “Sail” on my own like Peter Pan in Hook I just need to find that want to live, I need a new “happy thought” as of yet Ariel’s got me smileing pretty Joker huge just being her (thank you) and see how Madeline says to go to Florida and Montreal and never look back, well MADELINE should know that it’s due to her that I am who I am and that the only reason I do go forward is that my Spock Logic Brain Tells Me there Is Never another Madeline but there is a 99.9 Madeline out there some where and what this means is not that I want another Madeline but another “M” the “LOVE” if you will that Madeline showed me so freely and openly and unconditionally with no judgment and how she saw me and she made me feel safe even with know all the scary shit that’s out there…I’m very Greatfull Madeline’s affect on my life, lol, I have to laugh as like the oracle in the Matrix, Madeline Told me exactly what I need to hear but from her and no one else Thank You Madeline As far as help for this sort of thing, lol, the hitchhiker’s guide suggestion for LOVE is to just not attempt it, but glad you showed it to me, better to have loved and loss then to never have love at all right well I’m glad to have had it with you but the only remedy I think is Decapitation and heart removal, well until I find out I still love you in the after life…then what? And yes I have Blown Many chances of being happy but truly I believe that only they would be happy as every day I know I’d still miss you so don’t worry your happiness seems to last this far but seriously giving myself ill may next year and then its going to be just me and the sea J Weird now I’m determind to survive on my own to prove to Madeline I can do it and move on but only because I do really still LOVE her wish my mum could’ve meet her wish I had footage of That Thanksgiving 1995 oops lol GROW UP AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE I don’t ever wanna grow up, well maybe just enough to have a child and then be back to being childish to play but while still mantaining the adult resposability Also last but not lest, I can understand at first things being hard but 13 years later, you NEED to get over it. Yeah You did see me and we might of made eye contact but do you really think I need to be to be you and that I'm thinking Oh I miss you. NO. Like your What this last part means to me is that all those times I’ve “Sensed her presence” its been true, so what does this mean? And that day I did see her everyone told me No it probably just looked like her and here she is say herself it was her, but in all honesty I believe this to be Trish but Either way why would either contact me? In my mind neigther would have even…but I’m thankfull to hear from them just wish I could… well nevermind
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Trish’s Comments, well my first question is why would she of all humans on this earth talk to me even to laugh at me, right?
Looking forward to Comic Con (Look For STiXone) I recived the Comic con magazine and noticed the preview toys, I’m sorry collectibles, lol also see them at www.comic-con.org so far I’m eyeballing the 25th Anniversary Trans Formers Soundwave, Hassen’s wedding, well I tried really hard to communicate with him, but never heard from him and actually still haven’t hope everything is oh Kaye, as my sister tried contacting him via Myspace and Hatim but no reply so never went L
Kristen’s new Job and School, well my lil sister started going to school for computers and is still enrolled and recently got a job working for SONY how’s that shit?! Awesome!
Mum’s 68th and Albert’s 74th well we went to the wild animal park for mum’s birthday and al’s birthday they were in NY
Wedding With Spencer, was really neat watching the customs of the two families celebrate and I was all handsome looking in black and assisted Spencer
Disneyland ‘on my own” so cool driving from mum’s in San diego to Disneyland to rendezvous with Danny , it’s great to go to a place if been with others my whole life but by myself this time …to be continued
Pops Coming down to visit, bringing Gabe, Mara, and the Gecko arrived Thursday June 4th through the hellacious rain I meet them at Mad river and escorted them to the property its been great driving pops around and showing him how things are done here etc as well his thoughts and ideas and opinions helped out greatly too and we went to see The Land Of The Lost pops is also learning a lot from Danny and its fun doing the nightly chores around the farm with my pops J
Checked out the Jonas Brothers TV Show (by the way hella dig the Pizza girl video) show is good and enough cheese to accept it but not dis belive it, reminds me of the Monkeys, which I loved watching when I was younger in re runs. My niece totally crushes on I think Nick, or the eldest one
Today(061409) found three ticks on Gabe face and head L feel bad cause he’s here cause I wanted to see him so asked pops to bring him down, but thanks to the book I got for Ariel, “Spiders and Their Kin” I was able to identify that two were Castro Bean Tick (female) and one huge green Cattle Tick(male), so I used my bic and my safty pin that I wear on my shoes for safety heated up the needle red hot yellowish and shoved it in its thorax twards the head to get it to back out then same time used tweezers to grab it and then flamed it with bic lighter arrrgh yeah so much for the flea n tick collars who’s name will remain nameless L my little Gabe getting blood sucked just cause I wanted him to enjoy the forrest that I’m living in FREE-er than being stuck back at home but now little fuckers jumping onto him yum yum, thanks to J3N giving Gabe a Buzz cut before he left helps to see the ticks easier(thank you J3N J )
Going into Eureka tomorrow to post this on Yahoo, Friendster, My Space, and Facebook
And to wash my blankets as local machines small
Its been really relaxing watching sun rise sun set from the farms and havin to give all the gardens attention and TLC watering is very calming too good time to listen to French lessons, and also doing light depos keeps you on a decent schedule as far as sleep the nights sky is so beautiful too I remember M told me she never wanted to go back to cali cause of no stars due to city lights well here in this part of Nor cal it is Sweet the locals here make it homey too making new friends, biggest cost is genny juice (gas for running a generator for electricity), and trips to town for supplies, it’s a nice break from mankind a lil’ J my three bosses are kool to me as well always kicking food and buds down(they have their MJ cards too)
My cousin Brian turned 21 years old May 16th…
Don’t hear from too many people since I left but heard from plenty Like:
J3N
Rico(fwding txt to Ariel for me Thanks a million!)
Brian
James
Melissa
Krk
Shane
Lisa in Philly(thnx 4 pix)
Teil
Hobin
John G
Josh M
Jasmine(we meeting up during comic con?)
Big Wave Dave
Note: STXGER Cell Number: 1-541-633-0118, don’t be scared ;-)
Always leave message or text thank you Management
Love to watch Katie Morgan, note by the way Zack and Miri hit me hard square in the heart yo
According to my sister Ariel got both her packages and she loves em will update this as soon as I get to read me emails today oh Kaye ;-)
Going to try to do you tube videos for you too live from the farms J can’t wait to spend my money on my friends and family and also finally come through with those Disney plans for Ariel and man they are getting good getting excited just picturing her and most likely Melody enjoying the week I’ve planned out alls I need is for mother nature and those powers that be to be all in good spirits for those 7days…
Man all this talk its now 3am pt emotions running every which way gotta crash so I don’t crash on the way to and from town going to post this J
For Ariel: …ox…OX…XXX…XO…xo
Oh Kaye
Ta Ta For Now
Peace Love Unity and Respect
“Smiling For You Ariel” ~MPL
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