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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 22
Sign: Scorpio

City: NICHOLASVILLE
State: Kentucky
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/18/2005

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Monday, February 25, 2008 
HERES HOW YOU PLAY: ONCE YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED, YOU HAVE TO WRITE A BLOG, 13 RANDOM THINGS, FACTS, OR HABITS ABOUT YOURSELF. AT THE END, YOU CHOOSE THIRTEEN PEOPLE TO TAG, LISTING THIER NAMES AND WHY YOU CHOOSE THEM TO BE TAGGED. DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE THEM A COMMENT SAYING "YOU'RE IT!" AND TO READ YOUR BLOG. YOU CAN'T TAG THE PERSON THAT TAGGED YOU. SINCE YOU CAN'T TAG ME BACK, LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU'VE POSTED YOUR BLOG SO I CAN SEE YOUR ANSWERS.

 

13 Random Things, Facts, and Habits of Me.

 

1.) When I'm sick I get really helpless. I seriously need a live in nanny/caretaker/whatev.

2.) I was born without a 'motheristic' gene. I don't know how to take care of anyone when they need help, and my communication skills suck. Ask Eli.. he can attest.

3.) I really do like working in retail, and with other people. But i really don't like people in general... what an oxy moron huh?

4.) I once thought you could get pregnant by kissing.

5.) I have to sleep in complete darkness. There cannot be a TV, nightlight, or even the glow of a cell phone. If there is, I can't go to sleep.. and if I manage to it'll take me forever.

6.) I have small little panic attacks when I drive over bridges that are over water. This is reason 1 why I can never live in Louisville. The bridge that collapsed a few months back confirmed all my fears.

7.) When I was little, I was such a miss goody-2-shoes. I never did anything wrong. Obeyed my parents every word.

8.) I've never really traveled. I get kinda jealous when people talk about the places they've been. I've been to Indiana, Ohio, TN, AL, NC, and once FL. yeah. i live dangerously.

9.) I really love my hair. When i was little i hated it.. being called Carrot Top can really do some damage to you. But i love the fact that alot of people have desires to be with a redhead :)

10.) I will never use the bathroom when it's lightening outside. I have this constant fear that it will come through the toilet and strike me dead.

11.) I hate people who dress their pets up. Your animal hates you for it.

12.) I myspace map... alot. i like to know what's up with anyone and everyone. i like to know the news. i'm nosy.

13.) i nap//sleep more than your regular person. anytime i have free time... i'm napping.



I have to tag people now and I really hope that everyone does this :) .. .

Eli, because you're my boo and i love you!

Rallen, i know yours will be fantastic.

Sam, you're honest. loves it. top 5 of my coolest chicks.

Amanda, i have a feeling yours will be interesting as well :)

Thomas, I haven't seen you in so long. i love you!!

Rachel, i haven't seen you in forever either. i miss you. i want to know what's up! and i really wish i could have came to your birthday :(

Steve, even though i doubt you will do this... it could be interesting

Morgan C., just because.. haha. i don't even know if you'll read this.

i know i was supposed to put 13 people on here, but half of them have already done this thing!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 

Current mood:  devious

[This is from my BFF, Rallen. Even if you don't know me, her, or the situation... read this. It may teach you something.]


A rant for the ages...for me at least

I'll start by posing a question I already know the answer to. Have you ever felt like you were putting yourself out there to someone you know and trust, only to be taken advantage of? Well, I'll relate to your story with my own in the form of a moral anecdote. This is my alternative to an angry tirade.

When my husband and I got married, we were planning to move to Florida. We were strapped for cash (weddings are expensive) but we needed transportation for ourselves and our stuff. We couldn't afford a truck or even the rental cost of a U-Haul. Luckily, I knew that my uncle was in possession of a useful family novelty. My parents had owned this old Ford van that we had used as an RV of sorts when I was a kid. My uncle borrowed the van for awhile and eventually bought it from my dad. They traded it off frequently and one night, they realized some awesome potential in the brown beast of a beaner van. They toiled and put their hearts and souls into it's transformation. They hacked out the middle section, and after a few nights of welding and a bucket of bondo, the Tran was born. With a flatbed and smoke stacks, the ugly old van had morphed into a rednecks dream. It may not have been easy on the eyes but it was a proud workhorse just the same. From something that would be seen as little more than scrap metal to anyone outside our family, came a scrapbook on wheels, carrying on it's bed of two-by-fours a myriad of memories and a legacy that few would ever fathom. I knew it wasn't much but it was just what we needed to start on our journey to our new home. After a visit with my aunt and uncle, the Tran was ours. We loaded our gear, being careful to keep our valuables between the smokestacks and headed on our way.

Now some may laugh and some may cry but in doing so know this: The Tran may be worthless to anyone outside of the family, but to me, it's priceless. Continue your reading my friends.....

After a memorable and slightly romantic newlywed trip, we made it to Florida. Within two months though, I desired the company of my dear friend from back home (I'll call her Skinny from now on.) Her fiancé, who I'll call Private, was coming home from the military for awhile and she decided she wanted to get married in Florida. It seemed like a good idea for her to head down for a visit, so she did, with her beloved Private right beside her. We visited and then experienced the beautiful elope-tion of the soul mates. But all that glitters is not gold you see, as the star-crossed lovers soon would realize. I watched them gaze dumbfounded at one another when they realized that they had failed to budget there way home! Newly married and stranded at the home of their unfortunate witnesses, they decided to just stay another week and wait for magical funds to fall from the sky. When they discovered that this was unrealistic (or probably just figured it was taking too long) I came up with a solution: If the Tran had been my rite of passage, then it should be Skinny and Private's too! I loved them like family, and this new chapter could be beneficial to the Tran/family legacy. I wouldn't mind allowing a dear friend to add a page to our scrapbook on wheels. I didn't want to lose my family's prized flatbed permanently, though, so I drafted a contract. We'd get the Tran back in less then a month, having lent it to them until Thanksgiving. All parties involved John Hancocked that shit and then the lovebirds took off for Ft. Drum, (with a pit stop back home in Nicholasville of course.)

They hadn't even made it home when we received our first Tran/friendship destructing phone-call. Skinny informed me that the passenger window spontaneously burst! We all know that glass has the tendency to burst suddenly without provocation. Then, after they got home, the alternator belt broke, a common and quickly fixable problem. They "replaced" the belt and immediately they complained that the BRAND NEW alternator was bad. They had that replaced and went about their journey.

As time went on, my husband and I began to miss our beloved friend (the Tran that is) but Thanksgiving came quickly. We went home expecting to be reunited with our Tran but guess what! Skinny and Private never made it out of Nicholasville! We listened to there stories and plans and, since we didn't absolutely need the Tran yet, I offered for the dynamic duo to extend the lease until Christmas. They agreed and we departed once again, Tranless.

The month went on without word, and come Christmas, the husband and I were itching for some two-on-one time with the Tran. However, as luck would have it, they hadn't made any plans to return our property rightfully to us. I was pretty heated at this point but I wanted things to go as smoothly as possible. I texted my friend and asked about the Tran and when we could expect it back. She got very defensive and tried to justify the fact that, by this time, they had stolen my Tran! She said that they put 700 dollars into the thing, as if that makes it theirs! I apologized and reminded her that I had been afraid this would happen. I didn't think it was very fair for her to borrow my trusty hauling machine so long that I couldn't even use it. She argued without any firm stance for a while and then hung up, refusing to speak to me.

I called my mom, looking for some sound advice. She was already irritated at the whole ordeal. She, along with my father and aunt and uncle had been calling me to ask when I knew the Tran would be back. My father was close by through our conversation and he made a noteworthy point: I could call Privates commanding officer and, as the military doesn't take lightly to criminals, the Sergeant would see to my struggle for me. I Skinny with this information and immediately received a threatening phone call from Private. What did he expect me to do? Call the police? It all would end up in the same place anyhow! So he made arrangements with me. We would have the truck by January 15th!

To make an already ridiculously long story short, It is know February 19th. I've made repetitive attempts to reach the permeable pair over the past week and since I was honest in the text about what I needed to speak to them about, I can only assume as to why they suddenly won't answer. (Even though yesterday they called my husband's phone and when I answered they hung up and wouldn't answer my returned calls.)

Now the sedulous soul mates have given me no choice but to hold them accountable for this thievery. I have notified authorities who are able to hold this accountability at Private's base. I can't apologize for things having gotten to this extreme. I tried repetitively to prevent it. But I can help others learn from my mistakes.

I said this was a moral anecdote and I wouldn't let you leave without a moral: If your instinct tells you to draft a contract to do a favor for a dear friend, DON'T do the favor.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008 
i'm tired of people acting like 2 year olds, and not confronting their problems. if you have an issue with someone, then only way things are going to get better is to talk to that other person about it. be an over dramatic drama queen is not going to solve anything. acting people through myspace, deleting all your shit, and then rearanging stuff when you're angry doesn't fix anything. -- but this part kind of makes me giggle.
i listen to both sides of the problem, and offer my advice as i see needed -- or when asked. i don't get in the middle of it, because that is not going to solve anything. only those parties involved can solve it.

we are all adults here. please act like one.

as i said perviously, i am getting rid of all the toxicity in my life. this is becoming toxic....
Friday, December 28, 2007 
in most cases i don't care too much of what people think about me. it may bother me for a bit, but then i generally just let it roll off my back. i don't care MUCH if you don't like my personality, looks, humor, think i'm honest, or trust me.. whatev. but when someone close to me, and i love, does... it's something quite different.
    everyone make mistakes. we learn from them all. we try to correct them. i know i have. but when the person i love tells me they don't trust me, wtf. let alone in a public setting just chilling with friends like it isn't that big of an issue -- just something you casually say. i feel like i compete with everyone who has wronged him in the past, including competeing with myself. yes -- being in bad relationships, and going through divorces suck, but i can't control those things. please don't put me in those situations, because it's not our situation. i can't make up for the others that have wronged you in your life, AND try to correct the things that i've done.
    i've done nothing wrong, and i try to correct everything that i've done wrong.. and correct things that i would do wrong. i can't begin to spend the rest of my life with someone who has these issues with me, and someone who doesn't want to talk about the issues. i want to start a life.

     if there's no trust, this won't work anymore. if there's no motivation to start a life together, this can't work.
Saturday, September 22, 2007 
and i don't know why. i'm not unhapppy with my job. i like the people i work with. i just found out that i can get back into school for the last half of the fall semester. i'm not strapped for cash. nothing really bad has happened to me.

but i can't shake this randomly "depressing" feeling. it's like i need something, but i can't quite put my finger on it.  i do wish i had more time to invest in my relationship. i feel like we don't spend enough quality time together, just the two of us. but i think this whole thing is about the friends i lack. i'm used to having myself surrounded with tons of people, and always being able to count on a select few. i think this mostly came when rallen moved to FL. maybe i just feel like i really lost a friend.. i don't know. i barely see sarah rose anymore. the last i talked to her was when we helped her move, that was a few weeks ago. i really miss seeing thomas too. ahhh. i want to know what is going on in everyone's lives. hell, half the stuff i know i found out through myspace surveys. how gay is that. i kinda wanna cry when i think about these type of things.

i really don't have any female friends to talk to. i bitch about things to the boys at work. but i don't have anyone to call up or just hang out with and talk about those things... that girls talk about. if eli and i have problems, i feel like the only person i can confide in is myself. if i'm having any problems at all, and i can't talk to him about it.. there is no one i can talk to. being raised with sucky communication skills is fabulous. i think i talk to myself more than anyone else.

every one is doing their own thing. getting married. moving in with their significant other. growing up.... and it's all without me.
Friday, September 14, 2007 

Current mood:  sad
dear ______________,
    i'm really pretty sad we don't talk much anymore. i miss you. i miss the times we used to spend together... joined at the hip. we used to be the best of friends. we randomly drifted apart, and now we're states apart. you have other BFF's now, and i'm pretty jealous of them. it kinda makes me almost depressed when i think about it.. or just really really sad. i always figured we'd be BFF's foreva and eva. you were like that one friend that understood everything i did, and thought the same way i did. and we all know how i suck and telling people how i feel... so yeah.
i miss you//love you. -- i'm ending this before i become officially emo and cut myself.

[this is totally random. if it's about you... you'll know it.]
Friday, August 10, 2007 
call me out. especially on myspace.. let alone in a blog. you don't know me at all, and you don't know my reasons why i have the opinions that i do. i want my friends to be happy, but that does not mean i have to agree with them. being friends means that we have a difference of opinion and we respect each other for it.

so i don't think a "fuck me" is in order.

k. thx. bye.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007 

Current mood:  excited
I'm employed! who would have thought? Hopefully I don't repeat this pattern again in 2009; lose job in may and find a job in the fall. this was exactly what happened 2 years ago, the irony. the first month was fantastic,  but soon i just felt like a lump on the couch. i had such specifics for the job i would take... it made it a lot more difficult. Even more so I'm very excited that Amanda and I get to work together again. Hooray! There's no doubt in my mind that Best Buy will treat me better than MaxRave. In thinking the other day about my previous job, i actually think i truly hated it. The people were fantastic, but all the BS was ridiculous.

But I feel like shit since i've gotten behind of my bills. i worked so hard to try and get my credit from where it was to where it is now. having to settle a debt on a credit card is no fun.. and neither are bill collectors repeatedly calling. the worst part is that i can't receive or make phone calls.. i just have a phone for looks. you never know how conveinent a phone is until you don't have access to it anymore. i owe the bank money.. it's pretty bad when you are so broke that you have to pay the bank. at least that unemployment check covered most of it.

i can't wait to pay off all my stuff and start saving. it saddens me that the original idea of the truck is going to be put on hold.. for quite some time. but getting out on my own is much more important to me right now. i'm not going to school this semester.. so i have nothing to do but work. i want to get out own my own so badly. i'm only here to sleep, shower, and keep my crap. even then... i hardly come home at night. i only stay here when my parents are gone. i don't socialize with my parents, talk to them, whatev.. horrible i know. however, i honestly feel if i were to move that my relationship would be 10x better.

i know in every blog i've posted for the past.. forever i keep saying that i can't wait to start out on my own. i guess i keep saying it because i am truly excited about it. house, engagement, marriage, graduating .. of course in no particular order. listening to many of my girlfriends talk, i realize how good i have it with him. fantastic-o. plus i'm dying to plan a wedding, anyone need one planned? haha. actually, i'd really love to be a wedding planner.... hmmm.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 
yeah, so i was really bored. and every time i do this thing.. it says it can never find anyone. i found a random picture that actually worked. granted, it is older and i don't really like it. at least it found people.. and this time it didn't say i looked like Tom Green

Saturday, June 09, 2007 
so. officially, i want to be engaged. i want to plan a wedding. i want to get married. k. thx.