i am struggling right now guys... i'm not gonna lie... i need friends now more than co-workers or peers... if u truly view me as a friend whom u trust... i need to know now because u guys will be the ones i will talk to about it...

a note to youth peeps--- though i may not be at youth all the time remember you guys are always welcome to call me if u need anything at all... even its just to get out of ur house for an hour or more...

one smidge of worldly advice – stay single till college if u can... u have no idea wut is in store for there... i do kno this.... it will be AMAZING

i want to be able to trust all of you but im not sure who cares about my trust enuf to trust me back... i kno who i want to be able to trust but i am unsure who really cares...

if u care... leave a comment

or better yet IM me... erichart89@yahoo.com yes it is AIM and the @yahoo part is needed....

i hope this doesnt last too long bc i hope i can get my head on str8 and sort out my priorities... and hopefully with the help of those who consider me a friend....

Sven/Eric

Put your name down, and I will proceed to do the following:

1. I'll respond with something "random" about you.
2. I'll tell you what band or movie you should be in.
3. I'll pick a drug/substance that we should do together.
4. I'll make fun of you in an "inside-joke" sorta way. 
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
7. If you do this you MUST post this on yours. You MUST.

I don't remember where I heard it but someone said "God has no need to be jealous because if you are truly seeking for something to believe in, you will find him." I know that I didn't just make that up, but it has been running through my head for a while. I am sort of proof for that statement. I had been a Christian my entire life, but in recent years had tried various forms of things to obtain Enlightenment, Eternal Life or whatever. It wasn't until the Youth Retreat in January after contemplating the various things said there that everything I had learned over the past however many years actually meant something to my life and I was able to think about everything my Youth Pastor said in context of how did it apply to my life and on certain occasions, it felt as if he had talked to me about my problems and made a lesson on the ways to fix them.

The month of July has been a time of growth for me. Shortly after my Youth Pastor started talking about praying without ceasing, I asked myself what I had to lose by trying it and decided that I had nothing to lose...so I tried it. A week later, my family left me at the house by myself. I was so lonely that I was only in the house on one night...Friday July 13th. I had nothing planned that night and I called and asked several people what they were doing. Nobody was doing anything. So with nothing to do in an empty house, I decided to rip my heart wide open and let God fill me with the Holy Spirit. My initial appearance was as if I was in deep contemplation/prayer all day, which I partly was, but the next week, I slowly learned how to not appear that way to people. on Sat. July 21. I thought I was in for a rough next couple of weeks, but instead the end of July has proven to be a fantastic week and three days. I have a renewed sense of fun at work and my parents are trying to help me organize my life, while I am attempting to let God be my number one focus and let him deal with the big things I don't know if I can handle or not. God has helped me deal with many of my sins, such as my uncontrolled anger, lust, greed, and probably several others. Whoever it was that said "All you have to do is follow the first commandment and the rest will follow because you have been changed and you will want to do the others," is absolutely right because I have noticed that I am much less prone to fighting with my parents than I was a couple of months ago, and that I don't idolize things anymore but use them for what they were intended.

I have also noticed that my prayers haven't fallen on deaf ears because on Sat. July 28. I was unable to drive to work. I left my house at 11AM walking to Wal~Mart from Locust Hill (about a 5-7 mile hike) and I had to be to work at Noon. On my way there, I was calling everyone I thought may be able to help in anyway praying each time that the person would be able to lend a hand. I was walking around the first turn (on 51 from my house), when my mom called me (I had been gone for a half-hour at this point) and about that time a man from church (Dennis) popped over the hill, recognized the back of my head and pulled over. He asked me if I needed a ride somewhere. He was actually on his way to Wal~Mart anyway so I hitched a ride and still got to work about the time I would've if I had driven myself. I thanked God for helping me get to work.


I guess I'm done for now.

-----Sven-----

So I'm gonna give the whole blogging thing a try. Please be patient with me.

One thing I have noticed recently is that in the last year alone many of my relationships changed. Some for the better, while disappointingly enough some for the worse. I have even made and lost a friend in the manner of a couple months.

I am one who tends to trust to willingly and ends up being disappointed in the end when their true colors are revealed. A certain few people (I will try to keep names out of it) have taught me to be much more cautious with opening up to people, which is why I have about a one year buffer before I think about advancing any relationship beyond where it currently stands. In any case where I have tried to accelerate the process I move way too fast and it hurts more because I just became friends with the person and they show their true colors. Now don't get me wrong I have met a lot of great people but it is rarely the good people who force us to look at ourselves in a different light and change things about us. It is the people who let us down, who make us start to think about what went wrong and if it was something we did, how we can fix it.

The relationships that have grown for the better are very few but they are all in one place and that is my Youth Group at Oakland UMC. They are the greatest people I have known and we have all grown really close to one another especially those of us in the upper grades.

It is because of these ever-changing relationships that I have determined who my true friends are and whom I can trust with everything. Before this year I told all of my friends almost anything and kept a few in closer confidences than others. Now, I have actually have 2 best friends, who have access to my entire personal history and if they so choose I will tell them anything they want to know (so long as no wary ears are nearby). I never had anyone like that before, I had a few close friends and always my Youth Pastor but never any of my peers whom I trust would never to anything to harm me intentionally.

I think that should just about cover it for now. If any of this is unclear or you want to know more, either comment or message me about it.

PS:. To the Youth of Oakland UMC….I love you guys.

Hate, Malice, Anger What Good Are They?

 

Hate malice anger what good are they?

They keep one tied to past occurrences

That may never be resolved.

When two hearts cross

And one crosses the other

Both hearts are hurt.

The biggest difference between success and failure

Is the speed upon which you recover from blows dealt you.

 

It is always said keep your friends close

And your enemies closer.

More pain comes from your friends.

It is always hard for people to hurt you

If you keep your distance

But then you will never now the true meaning of friendship

Or pain if your luck should waiver.

 

For the past years of my life

I have lived and learned

But the one thing I have been lucky enough to avoid

Is the experience of being wronged by a friend or any one else.

Whether it is good or bad I know not

But I do know that my days on Earth are limited

And I will not be able to avoid it much longer.

 

The main reason why my life has been so sheltered from disappointment

Is that I not only expect what I receive and not much else

But that for the first fifteen years of my existence

I but was a nomad

Moving from place to place

With only the possessions in the vehicle behind us.

 

Many people screw up so much

They do not choose their allies well.

The end result is that they suffer a life of pain

From which the seeds of hate, malice and anger grow.

With the emergence of such feelings

One must decide what to do with the new power in their repertoire.

 

The Adventure Through Time

 

Brandon W. = Brandon W.

Sven = Sven

Seven farmers from 1692 = seven random people in class

Black Hand Assassin = Brandon R.

Archduke Franz Ferdinand = Chris Seal

 

 

Sven and Brandon walk into Mrs. Rickert's classroom 2:00 PM

 

BW:. Hey Sven. How are you today?

Sven:. Fine. Thanks.

BW:. We're still on for that time travel trip after school right.

Sven:. Yeah man, meet me at the football field at 3:00. What year did you want to go to again?

BW:. I wanted to go to 1914 Serbia to watch the assassination that sparked WWI for a history report due Monday.

Sven:. Ok, Serbia 1914 it is then.

BW:. I'll be there.

 

3:00 PM at the football field

Brandon walks up to Sven who is standing next to the time machine.

 

BW:. I'm here. Out of breathe from running up the hill

Sven:. Good get in quickly, I have the timer set for June 28, 1914 Serbia, and there is only 2 minutes left before it goes off. Gets in and sits down

BW:. Gets in and sits down as well. I'm glad I made it. I would hate to fail my report.

Sven:. Alright, here… we… go!

 

 The time machine sets off for June 28, 1914 Serbia. On the way, there is a glitch. The timer changes from June 28, 1914 to December 28, 1692 Salem.

 

Sven:. Oh my God! Something is wrong with the timer on this thing. It now reads December 28, 1692 Salem.

BW:. Wait a minute; I think that the Salem witch trials were taking place in Massachusetts around that time. What could have caused such a malfunction to happen?

Sven:. The only thing I can think of is that the time jump was too short and it had to go back at least 313 years to bring us home safely.

BW:. Oh now I see. Can I panic now?

Sven:. No, I think I can get us back on track by landing in 1692 Salem quickly and then restarting the time machine and heading for 1914 Serbia.

BW:. Ok, but what ever you do it has to be quick I think we are out of the time rift and about seven local farmers are starring at us. Hurry, they are approaching at a very fast pace and with Fire!

Turn off 1 light switch to illustrate dusk time

Enter farmers 1 and 2.

 

F1:. Thomas, do you see that prodigious thing there about a fathom or two away.

F2:. Yes Phillip, I do. It appears to have been conjured. I also see 5 of our fellowes headed out there to burn it.

Sven:. Almost got it. That should do it. Just set it for June 28, 1914 Serbia.

 

Enter farmers 3-7

 

F3,4,5,6,7:. Burn it, Burn it, Burn it, Burn it.  F4,5,&6-Keep chanting until it disappears

F3:. It must be cleaved in two for its effrontery.

F7:. Burn the heathen thing. Burn it with out qualm. Quickly men, our chance for retribution is dwindling rapidly--- the time machine disappears before the mob gets there

Sven:. And here… we… go.                                                         

F1:. Damn. Where do you think it went Thomas?

F2:. Hell if I know. I'm just as befuddled as you. It just disappeared. Best not tell no one of this Phillip.

F1:. I agree man no one will believe us. They will think we are trying to beguile them, and our word as men of probity will be tainted.

F2:. If anyone asks about our dealings here today. We will commit defamation and use intimations to evade our true purpose here.

F4:. Just coming up the hill. I agree and if all else fails we will turn ta sniveling and quailing to turn their adamant questions away from us.

 

Exit farmers 1-7

Once again safely in the time stream.

 

BW:. That was close. We should be getting there soon right.

Sven:. Yes, I believe so the clock says 1910…11…12…13…14.

 

The bright light of the time stream slowly fades into darkness. Turn off lights

 

Sven:. We're here. June 28, 1914, Serbia.

BW:. Kinda dark, don't you think?

Sven:. Well yeah, but I programmed it so we would be in an ally off the main street where the assassination attempts will take place.

BW:. Oh, ok. Let's go.

Sven:. Wait. You don't want to have to explain your clothes now do you. Here are some clothes that will match the propriety of the era and not cause too much attention and one more thing, no revealing the future or when you are fun to anyone. You will change the course of history.

BW:. Ok I guess, I don't want to change history or have to explain anything since I don't even know how this thing works. Let's go see if we can see the parade because I know there was a procession just before he died.

 

Turn on lights as they exit alley

Enter Black Hand Assassin

Sven:. Ok I agree. I believe he was killed outside of a corner store. Hey, man do you know where I can find the procession of the Archduke Franz Ferdinand?

BHA:. Yeah, he should be coming around this corner any minute now.

Sven:. Thank you. Kind sir. Brandon, the Archduke will be coming around the corner about now.

Enter Archduke Ferdinand in limo

BW:. I see him. Grenade goes off in the background. Why is he getting out of his limo?

AF:. What in God's name is going on out here? Oh, what is this abomination?  bend over to look at the exploded grenade

Sven:. Well the grenade was supposed to blow up his limo and kill him. The assassin should be coming out to shoot him in about one minute. Two gunshots go off and hit the Archduke.

BW:. Oh my God! I didn't know about the grenade, but I did know about the assassin.

Sven:. I think it is time to return to the "car" and go home now. Besides, you have a report to write Brandon.

BW:. I agree. Let's go home.

 

Brandon and Sven return home safely. Brandon writes his report and aces it with a compliment asking where he got all of his insight on the subject.

 

Enter all cast and crew to take a final bow

Looks and Personality are the two key ingredients to true beauty

Without one you are ugly yet with both your beauty is vast

LOOKS

Looks are not the world but are important. The eyes are the windows to the soul, but even windows get foggy sometimes and don't give a complete picture. The body hair and other physical features are just tools of the soul.

PERSONALITY

Personality is very important because even a beautiful person can and will screw up a relationship with ugliness from within. Even the most beautiful guy or girl in the world will be loved by all for it, but when u meet them and they reveal their true nature to you that attractiveness can wear off if the person is even slightly immoral.



if anyone has anything to add feel free to comment



thanks for reading

Eric "Sven" Hart


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I have learned a lot since I first posted this blog over a year and a half ago

If any of you ever need a friend

You all know you can count on me

at your highest highs

and at your lowest lows

I will and always do stand by my friends

friends are the only thing that separates the rich from the poor

wealth is nothing without friends to share it with.





Sven's words of wisdom for today