Okay so both Javi and Art have let us know this is the last month they can be here, so it puts us in a difficult place. I need to find two people who are willing to move in in may, but i need to know within the next couple of days. If not we will all be moving. So if you need a place or know somebody call me or message me asap. The rent would be $400 dollars flat, Sean and I split the utilities, so no need to worry about that.  We have 2 rooms available, One is Arts old room its a converted garage, it's massive(about a 1/4 of the total house) and has a sliding glass door to the backyard, it does however have the washer and dryer in there so you would have to be cool with people washing their clothes every once in awhile. The second room is actually 2 rooms, it's basically a bedroom and a family room, the two rooms are separated by a set of glass doors. If you have never been here it's a really quiet neighborhood, neighbors don't complain, and it's pretty safe, the cross streets are First and Bullard. No pets though. If you're interested or know someone who is, give me a call or message me here or at evilchivo@gmail.com, again i need to know in the next couple of days or I'm going to have to give the landlord our notice to move out.

Well so far so good...
I think many of you know that I love singing, always have, always will. It's been my safety blanket, my anti-drug, my gateway drug, and my college major. What none of you know is that I've been putting together demos and sending them out to different A&R departments and agencies, with the hopes that someone somewhere will get what I'm trying to do and take a chance on me. Okay yeah I just got a call from the U.K. this morning, well to be exact from Loose Music (http://loosemusic.com). So at 4am this morning I get this call, the music is quite loud on the other end and there might have been some connection problems given he's calling from the UK.

uuuuh Hello? (more of a grumble than actual words)
Hello mate is this Silvano?
Okay now I'm thinking, the number is coming up all weird on the Caller ID, someone just called me "mate", and it's fucking 4am. ooooh I'm about to cap a ho.
Yeah this is him, can i help you?
He turns down the music. Oh now I can hear the very thick british accent coming from the "chap" on the other end. I'm not used to hearing british accents, well not actually talking to me. So now I'm kinda awake.
This is a rep from Loose music and we're very interested in signing you.
uuum wait, huh? What is loose music? and what do you mean signing me? and dude it's like 4 am?
oooh I'm so sorry, It's Midday here and forgot how early it is over there, would you like me to call back?
uuum no it's fine. What's up?

He preceded to tell me that they were a Alt. Country Label, that he had a copy of my demo, (never sent it to them by the way), and pointed out certain tracks that he said he loved ("Let me know the way. Horse, Road, Love" was a track they really enjoyed). They want me to fly out there and stay with another artist until i can get a place. Okay so I'm half asleep and i might get some of this wrong but according to them, the advance will come in about 3 weeks after i get there and be about 30,000 dollars (what?!?!?), They want me to do a charity show in a month for Horse Trust (http://www.horsetrust.org.uk), and spend my summer there working in the studio. Horses?!?! Fucking sweet! I love horses, many of you have no clue, a couple summers ago I took a horse riding class and never had more fun in my life. Their long beautiful manes, the strong muscles, the feel of the saddle, it's fucking brilliant. I'm supposed to do a two song set at this charity event, the first is "Let me know the way. Horse, Road, Love" which is supposed to be the first single, and the second song being a punk cover of "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy" but details to come later. So far thats all I know. We will be recording under the name "Phantom Mare", doing a post-punk/alt-country mix. Should be interesting. Soooo moving to London to do become a country star, leaving in 2 weeks. If anyone wants to have drinks are hang before I begin my life in the British Empire give me a call. Yeeee Haw!

I remember the last words we spoke, the impact is threatening. The vowels and links and gaps between words will forever be there. We lose loves, pasts, futures and what could've been. I stand here without these things.

I smoked the last cigarette you gave me.

We cannot change what has happened, nor can we decide what words have passed our lips or did not come at all. These moments will always be ours. This present is what we decide it should be. We move on, and grow and hopefully learn. This is ours, the legacy of our decisions.
Good day and good night my friends, these pieces of me that have made me who I am.

The fear of pain is one of the strongest things in our lives. It will keep you from doing the stupidest things and the most amazing things. What do you fear? What is fear keeping you from? Are you afraid of being alone, afraid of love, afraid of failing, or afraid of life?

Example: Leroy Brown is afraid of being alone, of not having someone to call his own. So he stays in an unhappy marriage, he takes what is given to him because hes afraid. He traps himself in what he knows because the alternative is something he fears. Does he fully know the alternative, the beauty it could bring. When fear keeps him from taking that step that could potentially bring him the happiness hes always wanted,

What would it take to run head first into the darkness? Will you ever know?

Can you smell it? No not what the Rock is cooking but
this air of possibilities... of opportunities... of blank slates....

Every day I open my eyes, sometimes ready to face the world, sometimes not but each and every day there is a chance to have something different, to do something out of the ordinary, to take advantage of all that has come your way. Things could be exactly what you want, if you just look for it, you take a chance, you dissolve all previous conceptions from what has come before and resolve yourself to the unexpected. I'm quite enjoying this time of new opportunities. Today is a good day, and tomorrow will get me closer to who I am and don't we all want to be closer to me. I kid.

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You know you want to. I'm super cool and do things that will make your face curl. I'm bored, hung over and looking for ways to shoot down your trees.

Do you ever get the a feeling that for a certain period of time every thing you do or decide is going to have a major impact on the rest of your life. I get this feeling every so often, its almost like a certain kind of death and rebirth process. A personal evolution is probably more accurate, old fears and faults fall off me and what's left is a person more like myself. This build-up of bad memories and negative feelings are slowly stripped away, like a warm shower after a hot and sweaty day. Though nothing is any clearer, it makes me more confident that what ever lies 
ahead is something i can handle easily or at least with a certain amount of grace. A 
path is before me and i do not know where it leads but i know i must walk it, so i'll 
trudge ahead hoping i've made the right decisions.

Do some self discovery, you fake ass people. I'm tired of hearing you say you love everything i love, I'm sure it works for most people but i will always discover how fake you are. You need to find your own passions instead of taking on the thoughts of others. I guess this world needs sheep to feed the wolves but you just annoy the fuck out of me. I'm not calling for genocide, but maybe a little culling would help me live a little happier in this world. You disturb my scenery, you destroy the solice my mind keeps when you appear before me. If i was a violent man i'd probably do much worse than verbally tear you apart and believe me if theres a category of people i would get close to being violent with, it would be you. Okay i'm done venting. Have a nice day.