Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 26
Sign: Libra
City: DOVER
State: DELAWARE
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/7/2006
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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I drove 400 miles, all for a kiss.
Do I regret it?
Hardly.
Six hours of waiting, crouched between lines painted on concrete
All for the briefest flash of ecstasy.
Was it worth it?
Absolutely.
It was the kind of kiss that starts smouldering, surreal.
It builds and builds until it has seared itself into one's memory.
400 miles, one kiss.
One kiss that will not, can not fade.
One kiss that lies incandescently etched into the space between my eyelids and soul.
Everything looks different through that kiss.
The world... glows.
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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I know that I will never see you again.
That fact hangs in the air between us,
Weightless, ethereal,
Pale beside the vibrant flare of your presence.
Your lips brush mine, and with them the susurrent inevitability of seperation.
Pressing, insistant,
I am reminded of the sheer mass of air,
The tons and tons required to create the simplest, gentlest breeze.
The air seems suddenly not so thin, not so weightless.
The merest thimblefull of atmosphere an intolerable barrier between us.
I pull you closer, tighter, and for a beautiful moment we are one.
Then, inexorably, reality ebbs back between us.
We are two once again.
And yet, I know I will be ever connected to you by that same air.
Ethereal, weightless
Even now, I take a deep breath
And I can almost taste you.
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
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I walked into the library, and took a deep breath. I took in the room in that breath. The warm, yellow light spilling through the windows, the smell of stone and wood and print and silent air. There was something else, too. A funny, cloying odor just beneath the ambient smell of the room. As I padded my way softly to the back shelves, it grew in intensity.
I rounded the corner and found, as expected, both the source of the odor and my reason for coming. The librarian looked up at me, hand on his pipe, and nodded. I nodded back and pointed to his pipe.
"Different today?
He nodded again, "Black and Tan. I think I like it, but I'm not sure just yet."
I gave an experimental sniff and shrugged, "It's a little sweeter than the last one, I think. I can't say I really mind, though. Speaking of which, do you know what I was musing on the way back here?"
The librarian slid his book back into the shelf and gestured with his pipe for me to continue.
"When I walked in, I said to myself 'something smells funny.' I started thinking about the phrase and though I have smelled things that made me want to eat and things that made me want to throw up I've never once smelled something that made me want to laugh."
He nodded sagely. "People have often said to me, 'that smells good!' or 'that smells awful!' No one has ever come up to me in stitches and said 'that smells HILARIOUS!"
"Moreover, when I realized something smelled funny, I started trying to analyze it and realized how limited my vocabulary was in that area. Every other sense has its own words to describe it. When someone asks 'what color is your car?' we don't say 'It's the color of the clouds just before it rains' we just tell them it's gray."
The librarian took a puff of his pipe. "We don't generally say 'this feels like a dark rock after sitting in the sun for hours,' we say 'this is warm.'
"Exactly," I said. "We don't say, 'Ah! That sounds like the whistle at the end of a match'"
"We say 'that sounds shrill,'" the librarian concluded.
"Yes! So why isn't there a word for the way freshly cut grass smells? Or for that sterile kind of clean smell when you go into a doctor or barber's?"
Silence. For a few moments, silence except for the occasional puff from the librarian and the kind of muffled, hollow hum that permeates the library.
Then, "I suppose it just comes down to how useful it would be to be able to describe to someone the smell of a fresh, crisp snowfall."
"You're right," I say, "People don't really talk about things like that."
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
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It's a cold wind. The kind that makes your skin tighten, but not the kind that gives you goosebumps. The kind that makes you quicken your stride, lean into it. It carries the smell of decay, the smell of change. The sun shines down brilliantly through that wind, and it smells so sweet.
The creek moves, same as always. Well, maybe not the same entirely. Scores of leaves ride its surface, slow its flow. It's almost like the water can somehow feel the weight of the fallen. A pallbearer of summer.
The rail of the bridge I'm standing on is cold under my hand. I muse a moment on thermodynamics. How that cold, rusted iron is pulling, drawing that energy out of me and into itself. It makes me wonder if, in a sense, the bridge is stronger for having held me.
Leaves, leaves, leaves. They're all over the street, ankle deep in all but the most fastidiously kept yards. It's as though the trees somehow communicated their intentions to one another, cried out "Now is the time!" They stretch upwards, free of their foliage, free of all obstructions. They say to their neighbors, "Look! Look how much I've grown!"
The wind blows, the leaves rustle, and I think to myself, "How strange. How beautiful." That the season with the warmest colors can be, itself, so cool. Its very essence seeming to say "It's growing colder now, but there will be warmth again." What a good time to walk.
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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Good morning everyone, I hope you all had a wonderful Halloween. Myself, I went for a very nice walk where it occured to me I should rather like to write quite a dark piece of poetry. I came back home, got myself a drink, and started writing. Several drinks and several stanzas later, I realized two things. Firstly, I was pretty much ranting in prose and had gotten completely sidetracked from what I had originally tried to say with the piece. Secondly, I couldn't read the last several stanzas I'd written without laughing hysterically. I decided it was time to put down the keyboard and start doing housework. (See Also: Gin and the Motivational Speaking Circuit)
So in cleaning my closet I discovered one of, if I recall correctly, many scattered notebooks of various writings. I've gotten better about misplacing them lately, which leads to much greater productivity and fewer pleasant surprises like the ones I found.
Two little snippets of prose... I hope you enjoy them. (^_^)
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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Category: Writing and Poetry
The moon, a shining steel ball. I see it dripping, dripping with mice, falling like tears into the seas of life. They don't know where they'll land, that's the reason for the journey. Sometimes, a particularly soft one finds a good home, one with imaginations to pet and feed it. But it's always the quickest ones who survive. They stream out among the stars, plink, plink, plink... into the inky void. They wash up on our shores, fill and pour down our gutters, fill the streets. Was their journey worth it? No one asks, they're only mice.
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Airplanes twist and roll as they chase each other in the sky. The crowd they seek to entertain is gone, to a nightclub in the city with glittering lights. Shimmering glasses full of sparkling drinks served by beautiful waitresses in sequin dresses to wide-eyed patrons watching a singer at a gleaming microphone. She sings of airplanes. And every note positively drips with blue and red. Who needs airplanes of their own when she can sing them into aerobatics most pilots wouldn't dream of?
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Thursday, October 19, 2006
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I stare down into my cup of coffee. It's black, like the starless sky outside. No rain, just subtly threatening with that hint of electricity in the air. The same kind of energy this coffee's giving me... not really bitter but far from sweet.
The lady behind the counter and I get along real well. She caught my mood walking in, and the only thing she's said to me all night is "fries?" as I ordered in single-word sentences. I push what's left of those fries to the back of the counter. Quicker than I can think the word "clairvoyance" she's out of the back, picking up my plate with a cocked eyebrow. I nod, and she refills my cup.
There's a noise from the back corner, and the nice lady frowns at it with a glance in that direction. The unmistakable sound of teenage laughter, far too late at night. I look over and see 4 coffee cups, no plates. I understand why she's annoyed... I was one of those kids once and I know they're gonna be a pain in her ass.
Times have changed, and so have I. I look over at the half-full ashtray and think, maybe not so much. I hear a startled "OW!" from the corner and look over to catch the aftermath of some incident involving a sizable number of the diner's straws and napkins. I sigh, grin, and put a $20 under my cup. Another difference between these kids and I... I know if you're gonna cause a fuss in a diner it's only common courtesy to tip well.
I pull a cigarette from my pocket and start over to their table.
"I can't believe you just did that," one of the girls is saying. "Anything for a laugh.." the kid in the pile of straws replies. "Any of you got a light?" I interrupt.
A group of kids like this, at least one of them smokes. As a fellow wearing a black sweatshirt and substantially fewer napkins than his companion hands me a lighter, I pull over a chair. This confuses them, partially because they're in a booth and now they have no way out, and partially because it's just creepy as hell. They start to glance each other as I light my cigarette. Handing it back to Sweatshirt, I look over at Napkin. "Anything for a laugh?" I say acidly.
He opens his mouth to reply, and I continue. "I knew a clown once, said that. Took a team of forensic specialists, real ones, not those bullshit ones you see on TV..." I pause a minute and look over at the overly made-up girl seated next to me. "Sorry, don't mean to curse in front of a lady." She looks at me completely bewildered and I see I judged correctly that no one had ever called her a lady before. I take another drag on my cigarette. "Took em 3 weeks just to find enough pieces of him big enough they could try to put him back together. They gotta do that, for identification an whatnot."
I lean back, disarming. Three of them are still confused into silence, but not Napkin. He looks slightly nervous, but he asks anyway "What happened to him?"
I look at him as though he'd sprouted another napkin-crowned head. "The same thing that happens to ANY clown if you blow it into a bunch of pieces the size of your thumbnail! He DIED!" I take another drag, visibly calming myself. "Damn shame if you ask me. Bubbles was a good man. He woulda liked this place, all homey. Good coffee too." I reach into my pocket.
"I meant, how'd he die?
I look over at the 4th kid at the table, a quiet, little girl with a lip ring, sitting next to Napkin. "Does he ever pay attention?" I look back at Napkin, "He died suddenly, messily, and far before his time. More than that, you don't want to know." I toss a pinch of ashes into the air. I'll put the ashtray back later, but even if I kept it I'm sure the woman running the place would write it off as being worth it.
"What was that?" the girl with the make-up says as the grey cloud settles over all of us.
"You know those conversations you have sometimes with your friends? The ones where you speculate, for no real reason, how you might go out, and what you'd like things to be like? I had one a those talks with Bubbles once. Know what he told me? He said 'Crazy-eye, I've been with this circus nearly all my life. I never really had a home. Sometimes I get to thinkin that when I go, I hope I find somewhere good to do it, cause that's the longest I'm ever gonna stay in one place.'"
"That's pretty deep for a clown," Napkin says.
"Have you known a lotta clowns, son?"
"No, I'm just sayin.."
"Say less, think more." I turn to the quiet one, who stops brushing ash off her shirt when I continue, "So when Bubbles died, I got to thinkin 'if anyone's gonna find him a home, it's gonna be me.'" I sit back and smoke for a minute.
"So you were in the circus?" Sweatshirt inquires. I nod. "And your name's.. Crazy-eye? What kinda name is that?"
"It's a name for a damn good knife-thrower, or at least it used to be. I only missed once, and kept my knives so sharp she didn't even realize I'd cut her. Hardly even bled." I lean back from Sweatshirt, again calming myself and setting down the butter knife I had been using to illustrate my points. "Wouldn't hit her if she hadn't flinched, but no real harm came of it so I let it go."
"So why aren't you with the circus now?" Make-up asks,
"Cause a what I owe to Bubbles," I say. "Everywhere I go, I take him with me." I pat my jacket pocket and the ashtray responds with a nice, theatric "tink tink." "They cremated him, y'see, on account of there not bein enough of him left to do anything else with. This way, whenever I find a nice place like this, a little piece of him gets to go home."
I stand, pushing my chair out, and point to a bit of ash on Make-up's shoulder. "It looks like a little of Bubbles is gonna be going home with you, too. Take good care of 'em." A sudden frenzy of fastidiousness overcomes the table as I saunter out, winking at the lady behind the counter who softly smiles and shakes her head.
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
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Category: Writing and Poetry
The way that your hair Drifts over your ears In a most inconspicuous way
Is suspicious Almost like it wants to play I'd be vexed If it were not so delicious
It's simply out classed And a bit out of place Which is why I keep Brushing it out of your face
For the game we are playing Is of eyes and of lips Conversing in silence There's nothing but you on the tip Of my tongue My songs go unsung And my bells and my warnings, They all go unrung
As you breach my defenses I'm watching through lenses Which, rose-colored, coincidentally tint all this To what I am feeling's its natural hue I expect this euphoria's natural too Because naturally what I am feeling is true I'm no prophet, but I see the angel in you
In a word, you're radiant In two, heaven-sent Give me another syllable And you know I'll simply start to vent
About how you are incredible Your image is indelib-ally Etched into my eyelids So when I blink I've simply gotta see You beautifully smile back at me
You fill me with a desperate wish To climb into your waiting limbs And shimmy right on down your trunk I'm sober, but I'm feeling drunk On whatever nectar you produce I'd fight it, but then what's the use
I know I'd be back for another sip Till the room started spinning and I lost my grip On the beatific reality Of a girl like you smiling down at me I've got my eyes wide open, but I sure can't see How I deserve something like this to happen to me.
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Monday, October 02, 2006
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I'm growing tired of feasting On buffets of sleepless nights My pillow mounded high with seconds, fourths, eighths
Tenths of seconds tick by With the grace of figure skaters Who take the ice oblivious They've left without their laces
I emulate a stormy sea, I toss and turn relentlessly But there's no comfort here for me I crash upon no shore
No beach, no rocks, no reef nor cliff Give boundary to my consciousness And so I sail monotonous For days and days and days
And days turn into evenings And the nights turn into morn My music to cacophony And my wit to daze forlorn
A dyscalculaic sheepdog I watch helpless as my flock Rebuffs my attempt to quantify them And all my barks to stop
Their senseless milling, Were it placed beside a stream Would grind my mind to flour Evaporate my will to steam
But I'll condense just long enough To make this one request Though I know no sleep awaits me Please just let me rest.
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
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To those of you who come by for the random musings and insanity, I apologize if you've felt neglected. This is for you. And for you, Reese's (Alan's, and apparently partially my, cat.) So I was watching the aforementioned feline and I started thinking. There aren't a lot of varieties of people around. Anthropologically speaking, unless I remember 5th grade social studies incorrectly (a strong possiblity) there are roughly 5 varieties or general races of people, with regional variation of course. I looked at the cat, and I realized... there are a WHOLE LOT of kinds of cats. Not breeds. I mean species. And the key thing is, they all function relatively the same way, only on a different scale. There isn't really a human comparison, mainly due to intelligence. There's also some pretty obvious and fundamential anatomical differences between ourselves and the other primates. But back to the cats for a minute. There's a cat who has lived up the street from my parent's house for some time that really looks like a little lion. It has the puff on the end of it's tail and everything. And I have to wonder: If a lion saw that cat, would it basically see it as a really tiny lion? Obviously not entirely. It would probably look odd, but familiar enough to make it pause and wonder a little bit. Why is that one so small? I think it might be rather akin to a person running across a pixie, or something of that nature. The cat is, of course, much smaller and as such has much finer features as well. Would that make it prettier? One would think perhaps so, but at the same time it is too small for anything of that nature to be realistic. That said, lions eat things much larger than that. Would they view it as food? It would be interesting, to say the least, were there as many varieties of people. I wonder what they would taste like...
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