Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 40
Sign: Leo
City: Harrisburg
State: Pennsylvania
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/10/2005
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Monday, July 27, 2009
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Current mood:  shocked
Category: Life
Normally I try to be very careful about what I put up here because some of the "aftershocks" aren't fun to deal with. Well, for once, this has nothing to do with anyone that I know personally.
I left work early today to do a favor for some special people in my life. Since I have to use the public transportation to travel from where I park the van I drive to my office, it's usually not a problem. Since the area in which I work has it's fair share of African-American people, it kinda shocked me as to what happened today.
I caught the bus I needed to catch to get me to my vehicle. Since I usually take the first available seat in the front due to getting motion sickness if I start feeling closed in, I spotted the first seat available which was with a young African-American woman. This seat was just as good because I could stretch my knee out a bit so that I wouldn't have trouble walking later on if I kept it bent backwards.
Well, I asked the young woman if I could sit beside her and she gets up, mutters something about white people and moves to the back of the bus leaving the original empty seat and the seat that she had occupied available. I was stunned but not really surprised.
My parents raised me to be a very fair person. I have friends that are of different race and nationality. But for someone to make a comment about white people when all i asked to do was to sit in an empty seat beside her, well, it just surprised me.
So as we were driving down the route, I look out the window and see the church that has a daily soupkitchen. There are quite a few people standing outside waiting for the soupkitchen to open. I noticed that most of them were elderly and also African-American. It shocked me to see as many people standing outside as there were. What happened to Americans helping each other out???
I just don't understand how there can be people in this world who think they are so much better than others because their skin may be a different color, they may be from a different nationality or whatever. If I had the extra money to help someone out, I would certainly do so. Instead, I'm helping out in other ways. I just don't understand how people can call themselves AMERICANS and then treat each other with such disrespect and illwill.
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Friday, July 17, 2009
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Current mood:  satisfied
Category: Life
A Soldier's Take On Michael Jackson's Death]
*This is written by a young soldier serving his third tour of duty in ....Iraq..... Thought you might find his take on the Michael Jackson news interesting and he's right. *
*Okay, I need to rant. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson. As we all know, ....Jackson.... died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villain to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of ....America.... loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the American people find the need to flock to a memorial in ....Hollywood...., and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's a freaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? What about all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All those Soldiers who, knowing that they would be asked to fight in a war, still raised their hands and swore to defend the Constitution and the ....United States of America..... Where is their** moment of silence? Where are the people flocking to their graves or memorials and mourning over them because they made the ultimate sacrifice? Why is it when a Soldier dies, there are more people saying "good riddence," and "thank God for IEDs?" When did this country become so calloused to the sacrifice of GOOD MEN and WOMEN, that they can arbitrarily blow off their deaths, and instead, throw themselves into mourning for a "Pop Icon?" I think that if they are going to hold a moment of silence IN CONGRESS for Michael Jackson, they need to hold a moment of silence for every service member killed in ....Iraq.... and ....Afghanistan..... They need to PUBLICLY recognize every life that has been lost so that the American people can live their callous little lives in the luxury and freedom that WE, those that are living and those that have gone on, have provided for them. But, wait, that would take too much time, because there have been so many willing to make that sacrifice. After all, we will never make millions of dollars. We will never star in movies, or write hit songs that the world will listen too. We only shed our blood, sweat and tears so that people can enjoy what they have. Sorry if I have offended, but I needed to say it. Remember these five words the next time you think of someone who is serving in the military; "So that others may live..." .... Isaac P.S.-"So that other's may live..." was also the creed of the Air Rescue & Recovery Service during ....Vietnam.... & is still today.
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Tuesday, June 09, 2009
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9fwjox49Wk
I didn't know there was an orange oscar until recently. Follow him on twitter. www.twitter.com/orangeoscar He's worth it.
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Sunday, June 07, 2009
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Current mood:almost successful
Category: Life
As most of you know, I try to keep blogs in a positive nature unless I feel the need to vent in a written format. Well, as much as I hate tooting my own horn...."toot toot". If you don't want to read any further, then please stop here. I'm just very excited about something that I just realized that I wanted to share my joy and happiness.
A friend of mine and I were talking this morning about some medical health issues going on in his life right now. The pain he is describing is not even something I would want to wish on my worst enemy. He's been telling me how difficult it is to keep working though all his pain but he knows that he really doesn't have a choice in the matter because he needs his paycheck in order to survive.
Well, believe me, I understand where he is coming from. I understand it more than anyone would probably think. Our discussion led me to thinking back about my own financial responsibilities and seeing how far I've come since my 2nd divorce in 1998.
Back in 1987 when I graduated from high school and turned 18 that summer, I thought I knew everything. Boy was I ever wrong!!!! I got pregnant and married all within a couple of months of turning 18. While I don't regret having my daughter, I wish I would have waited. Then having my 2nd daughter just before I turned 20, well, again, I wish I would have waited. I love my daughters and don't regret giving life to them, but I should have found out who I was first.
Now fast forward to the last several years. I'm trying to maintain a relationship with all 4 of my daughters. I've put myself through business school and obtained a diploma from a wonderful school. I'm finally living my life the way I should have before I got married and had children. I had to move away from my family and my kids and start my life over in a place where nobody knew me just so I could have a fair chance at making a living. Someone I was close to gave me that chance and for that I will be forever grateful. While things didn't work out between him and me, he did show me that I am worth something and am something very special to the right person.
I've looked at my life with a little more scrutinty over the last 12 months. I've lived in a mobile home that is older than most. However, I've paid the rent myself every month and on time. I've paid my bills and worked and reworked my budget almost to the point of being anal retentive about making sure I have money to live on because I hate asking others to borrow money. Granted I know I still have a ways to go to be where I really see myself as being successful, but I'm getting there. I haven't had to ask to borrow money for about 5 months now and even then it was because of alot of unexpected vehicle repairs that I really wasn't prepared for. However, the people that have helped me out with that have all been repaid for several months now and I have never felt so proud of myself for getting that all taken care of so quickly. It gives me hope that maybe I CAN do something right.
While talking to my friend this morning, I was telling him about some of the changes I've made recently and how I am looking forward to things finally leveling off so I can see just how much I've gained from making these changes. For those of you who don't know, I was on a dialup internet connection for the longest time. Oh Lord, how I hated it!!!!! I finally sat down and compared what I was paying for a landline telephone, my cell phone, my satellite tv and my internet connection to what I would be paying for if I got rid of the landline phone and used my cell phone as my primary number, changing my satellite tv to cable so that I could have hispeed internet. This would eliminate the dialup as well. Granted it was nervewracking but it was a change well worth the stress.
It was just a few months ago that really made me stop and think about how much I've changed. While I was doing the research on getting hi-speed internet, I forgot about the fact that I had to pay for my own heat. That cold spell taught me a very valuable lesson. I ran out of heat one cold weekend and it was scary. I couldn't reach out to my safety net and tell him that I goofed up again. I didn't want him to be disappointed in me. I had to take a big girl pill and do what I had to do to get through it without leaning on someone else. I called a place that helps with emergency fuel and explained to them that although I have a decent dayjob, I had some unexpected expenses come up that I was just not prepared for. It was tough but I survived. They graciously helped me out and once I get some things settled down here financially, I'd love to send them money in a donation form for everything they have done for me. I can tell you that my safety net was disappointed in me that I didn't say anything to him but I believe that he understands why I had to do what I did. I have since learned that if it ever happens again, I will not hide this from him. I hated myself for it.
So, back to the reason for this blog. If you've read this far, thank you.
I was talking to my friend this morning and telling him about some of the changes I've made in my life. Besides the hi-speed internet change, I've also started pre-paying for my heat. I send my oil company something each month so that when i need to have fuel delivered, it's already paid for. It's not quite the same as prepaying for cell phone minutes, but it is something that works for me. It's made me be more responsible for my own financial survival. I know my rent comes out each month. I know I need to pay my cell phone bill in order to have a connection to my family. The hi-speed connection and cable are actually luxuries for me. At one point I lived in a government subsidized house with NO CABLE, NO NOTHING!!! My dvd and vcrs got alot of use out of them. But it was something I had to do because I couldn't afford the other stuff. Now I force myself to send the heating company a check each month because if I don't, I may get back into that situation I was in a couple of months ago and I can't and won't go back to that. It proved to be a good thing because just a couple of months ago when we had some nice spring weather but at nights it got so cold that my furnace would kick on, I checked my oil tank because I knew I had to be getting low from the time I ran out of heat. I was right. I wouldn't last through too many more cold nights. So I called my oil company and they confirmed that I had a credit on my account. It was enough that they could deliver half a tank of fuel and I still would have money left over as a credit balance. That's what makes it all worth it!!!!!
So now, I'm working on my next partial delivery so that when winter does hit this year, I'm ready for it. Once I get that settled into my financial routine, my next three steps are to work on building a savings account, an emergency spending account, and planning for my retirement and still keep going with what I'm doing now. I know vehicle stuff is coming up and well, Christmas isn't far away either. Hopefully I can fit these in to my budget without cutting myself too short. I may have to see if I can get a part time job to get me started, but hey, I'm doing it myself!!!!! I need to be a success in my own eyes!!!! I cannot or will not fail!!!!!
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Monday, May 25, 2009
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 Create Fake Magazine Covers with your own picture at MagMyPic.com
Trying something new out. Please let me know what you think.
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Sunday, May 10, 2009
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Current mood:  disappointed
So as many of you know, most weekends I can be seen following around in Mike Trash's shadow, carrying his baggage, being personal papparazzi and his #1 fan that loves to hate him. Well, last night, apparently I had either not done my job well or maybe I was wearing my "invisible" outfit.
Mike and I were on our way home from ECPW in Binghamton, NY. The show was awesome!!! Standing room only. It was a hot crowd. Aside for the Jimmy Valiant/Macho Man Randy Savage idiot that was there, I was overall very pleased with the show. The Jimmy Valiant/Machone Man Randy Savage idiot made me realize how protective of my "boys" that I have become. I hated this guy and his mockery of Jimmy Valiant so much that Mike said I was almost in tears when I told him about it.
So here we were, on our way home, when we decided to stop at a truckstop that had a McDonald's in it. It's about 2:30 in the morning and there's not alot to choose from on the menu. Mike and I walked in together and were standing there talking about what was on the menu and trying to decide what each of us was going to order. The young man behind the counter asked Mike for his order. Mike stepped up and placed his order, paid for it and waited for it to be served. I was next in line, had my money in my hand and was ready to order but did the gentleman ask me if he could help me?? NO!!!!!!!!!! HE TOOK THE ORDER FROM THE PEOPLE WHO CAME IN AFTER US!!!!! He completely ignored the fact that I was even there. Needless to say I was very disappointed. Mike and I looked at each other in total confusion. I then told Mike that since apparently my money was not good enough to be taken at that establishment, I wasn't very hungry and was going back over into the truckstop, get a bottle of water and then I'd be ready to go. Mike got his order and followed me back over to the other part of the store and after I made my purchase and he made his other purchase, we left.
I guess next time I'll go to either Wendys or Arbys .. and I'll bet that I'd get served there.
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
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Current mood:invisible
Category: Life
Sometimes I wonder why I even try. This is very personal and normally I don't like to post stuff like this but tonite, well, let's just say, I have my reasons.
As most of you know, I recently became an aunt to my first niece. It has been years since my brother and sister and their respective spouses really even talked. Most of the time we just co-exist in the same space and that is really only for family gatherings. It's not like I haven't tried to mend the burned bridges because I have. I have changed alot over the years and for the better (at least that's what I've been told).
Well, tonite, before the show where I was ring announcing, I saw that I had missed a call on my cell phone. Someone left me a message but I didn't check it since I knew it was getting close to show time. I saw my mom had called me so I quickly called her back. Little did I know what I was in for.
Apparently the fact that I have pictures of my niece posted in an album on my facebook has caused alot of issues. Someone saw the pictures, contact my sister in law and then it got back to my mom. My mom was very frustrated and upset and asked me why I even had them up there. Hello??? this is my niece!!! don't i have a right to be proud of my family??? Apparently not.
Well, to my so-called siblings and their respective spouses.....Grow up!!! If you have a beef with me, call me. Don't go running to Mommy and Daddy and complaining. If you don't have my phone number, then by all means, ask them for it but you should have taken your beef up with me and not involved them!!!! It just shows what kind of cowards you really are.
I understand you are concerned about the sick people who would hurt little children. I'm not as stupid as you might think. I wouldn't post your address or any other identifing information like that. You really need to grow up and get a life!!!!
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Friday, April 24, 2009
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Current mood:jittery
Category: Life
For those of you who are reading this, it's not really that important. It's just something that happened to me today that I wanted to post in case other people may have the same thing happen to them.
I was out running some errands in Harrisburg. I stopped at the Dollar store because I wanted to just browse around to see if they had anything good and also because I needed change in order to finish my errand running. I purchased a couple of toys for my favorite dogs and left the store.
As I got in to the van, a black guy came over and asked me if I had a plastic gas container in the vehicle. He told me his name and that he worked for UPS driving the big brown trucks and that he and his wife had been stranded in the parking lot for an hour waiting for some way to get some gas. I apologized and told him that I didn't have what he was looking for. He then asked me for exactly $6.80 so he could purchase some gas. I told him that the only money I had on me wasn't mine and that I really didn't have any extra on me. He started to creep me out at this point. I felt bad that I couldn't help him but I honestly didn't have the extra money to spare. He said ok and then moved on to two people who were sitting outside the Dollar Store waiting on the bus. As I started to drive away, I had the passenger side window down and I heard the one lady waiting for the bus say to this guy, "take your cigarette and i'll call you later."
I don't like to think that this guy was being dishonest but well, just be careful if you're out and about. It's pretty bad when even the average person can't even go shopping.
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Thursday, April 23, 2009
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Current mood:expressive
Category: Life
Several years ago a close friend of mine showed me a very important thing that would be beneficial in my life. This person taught me about consistency and how being consistent is probably one of the most important things I could ever have. Recently there have been some people in my life that do not apparently realize how confusing things are when they aren’t consistent with me. Don’t tell me that you refuse to go someplace for particular reasons and then turn around and then say you’d love to go to the exact same place you have been telling me you refuse to go. Don’t tell me you’re trying to be my best friend and then act like I don’t even exist unless it’s something you want. I have feelings too, you know. Don’t tell me that you’ll be there if I ever need to talk and then turn around and let me find out that you really weren’t happy when I called because I interrupted your schedule. I don’t reach out to my friends that often anymore. I’ve learned that talking about things that are bothering me is a bad thing. I’ve gotten to the point where I’d rather just not talk about them and anymore I usually type my feelings out in a word document and then hit the DELETE key. But if I do call and try to reach out, I must be really frustrated about it. If nothing else, I try to be upfront and honest with everyone. I expect the same from everyone in return. The only problem with that is because I have trust issues, yes, more than likely I will probably doubt you at least to some degree until I really get to know you. There is an old saying “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me for letting it happen again.” I have enough going on my life right now that I don’t have time for silly games. I hate myself even more when I start to have these nasty feelings of doubt about people that I consider to be important to me and that have proven their trustworthiness. I’m trying to do everything right and turn myself into someone that I can be proud of. Someone that, years down the road, I can look at myself in the mirror and say “Damn, Girl, you have been through some very tough times but you know that you stuck it out and now look at you!!!” Yes, I’ll admit that I’m struggling with a lot of things right now. I have to really stand on my own for the first time in my life and it’s not easy. Ok, so I’ve been living alone for the last several years but it’s somewhat easier now then what it was back then. I went from struggling to make a rent payment each month and having no cable TV to watch to at least being able to afford satellite dish. Ok, so I don’t have propane with which to cook, but you know, since it’s really just me in the house anyway, my electric skillet, microwave, slow cooker, and my borrowed two-burner hot plate do just fine for me. So what that I’m driving a company vehicle. I’m trying my best to keep the maintenance up on it. The one time I was looking into seeing if I could make some type of arrangements to buy a vehicle that I could call my own and that would not cost me a lot of money to run because gasoline was around $4 a gallon at that time, someone went and let it leak that I was buying another vehicle. There was nothing definite in the plans at that point. It was just an idea that I was tossing around. Had I been able to make some definite plans, then yes, I should have been the one to inform the appropriate people and would have done so once the other plans were in place. I have siblings that don’t really even talk to me anymore because they are still living in the past. I’ve made mistakes!!! I’m only human!!! But at least I can hold my head up and say that I’m proud of the changes that I’ve made so far in my life but I know I’m not done yet. I’m still afraid that one day I will wake up and realize that it’s been all a dream. I’m not very much of a risk taker. I can’t afford to gamble on things because I don’t have a lot to lose. So now that I’ve said my piece, I don’t want or need any comments. If you wanna talk privately about it, you know how to reach me and I’ll be happy to discuss it further. This is one time I’ve typed my feelings out and didn’t press the DELETE key because I will look back at some point in the future, re-read this blog and think about what was currently going on in my life that prompted me to write it. I’m sorry if I offended anyone by posting this but just remember that you didn’t have to read it and you could have stopped reading it any time you wanted to. Thank you and have a nice day!!!
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