I CAN REMEMBER THIS LIKE IT HAPPENED YESTERDAY-IT WAS JUNE 13,2004 WHEN I GOT THE CALL AT 8 AM THAT MY ONLY SIBLING(SISTER)MY BEST FRIEND, MELISSA ANN NICHOLSON ALONG WITH THE DRIVER HAD FALLEN ASLEEP AND WERE BOTH KILLED.WHEN I GOT THE PHONE CALL I WAS IN THE TUB TAKING A BATH AND LITERALLY REMEMBER NOT HAVING ANY FEELINGS IN MY LEGS AS I TRIED TO STAND AND YELL FOR MY HUSBAND I SLUMPED BACK DOWN JUST SCREAMING AND CRYING WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO HELP ME OUT OF THERE. I WAS IN SHOCK. I WAS HELPLESS AND HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED OR EVEN HAD ANY IDEA THAT A PAIN THAT HORRIBLE EXISTED.IT WAS DEVESTATING I HATED EVERYTHING I WANTED MY SISTER BACK.IT MANGLED MY SISTER'S 100 POUND BODY AND SHE DIED INSTANTLY.I THOUGHT ABOUT SO MANY THINGS AND ABOUT WHAT I COULD HAVE SAID OR DONE AND HOW SHE AND I HAD A FIGHT THAT DAY (FORTUNATELY WE HAD MADE UP)AND I STILL TO THIS DAY HAVE A HARD TIME EXCEPTING IT. SHE WAS A LOVING SISTER, DAUGHTER, AND AUNT AND SHE HAD A BIG BEAUTIFUL HEART AND LOVED ME AND MY KIDS WITH ALL SHE HAD,SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND.I NEVER KNEW THE LOVE AND HOW DEEP IT WAS FOR HER UNTIL SHE WAS GONE.I FELT LIKE MY HEART HAD BEEN CUT OUT.I HAVE NIGHTMARES THAT SHE FAKES HER DEATH AND SHE COMES BACK AND TELLS ME SHE IS SORRY AND I WAKE UP AND IM SO ANGRY. IT DOES GET EASIER WITH TIME AND MY SPELLS OF BREAKING DOWN HAVE ALMOST STOPPED BUT NOT A DAY GOES BY I DONT THINK OF HER OR SOMETHING WE DID OR SAID.SHE HAD BEEN SAVED AT OUR CHURCH JUST 2 MONTHS EARLIER AND THAT IS THE ONE THING THAT CONSISTANTLY GIVES ME PEACE IS THAT I KNOW SHE IS IN HEAVEN AND WILL FOREVER BE SAFE AND FREE FROM ANY PAIN OR SORROW OR EVER HAVE TEARS ROLL DOWN HER FACE AGAIN.REST IN PEACE LITTLE SISTER

TODAY IS A HARD DAY FOR ME BUT IN ALSO A DAY TO REMEMBER BLESSINGS LIKE THIS EASTER BEING 3 YEARS TO THE DAY SINCE MY SISTER WAS SAVED AND ALMOST 3 YEARS SINCE SHE WAS KILLED. THANK YOU JESUS FOR ACCEPTING MY SISTER AND ALLOWING HER INTO YOUR KINGDOM.

MISS MOMMY

HAPPY EASTER TO ALL

ALLRIGHT YOU GUYS DONT SLOBBER ON YOURSELF. I ACCIDENTALLY LET A LESBIA ON MY FRIENDS LIST 1 TIME AND NOW IM APPARENTLY A MEAT MARKET FOR DYKES(EXCUSE MY FRENCH) DO NOT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE BUT I AM STRAAIIGGGTTT!!!!!!!! IF I CLICK ON MY SITE AND GET ONE MORE FRIENDS REQUEST FROM SOME LOW CLASS SLUT HOLDING HER CROTCH HALF DRESSED ASKING ME TO BE HER FRIEND I AM SERIOUSLY GONNA PUKE!!! SHIT DOESN'T ANYONE KNOW ABOUT ADAM AND EVE. FOR CHRIST SAKES IT IS NOT ADAM AND STEVE. STAY WITH YOUR OWN SEX PEOPLE AND IF YOU ARE THAT BORED THEN FUCK OFF BUT DONT BE PUTTING YOUR NASTY FAKE ASS DYED HAIR , SCRAWNY LOOKING BODY( LOOKING LIKE YOU AINT HAD NO MEAL IN 2 WEEKS) ON MY SITE. FIND OR BLOG WITH LESBIANS MAN IT'S VERY EASY BUT ANYWAYS...ANYONE OF MY LOVELY FRIENDS EXPERIENCING THE SAME CRAP OR AM I JUST SO HOT THEY CANT HELP THEMSELVES???LOL!!!!!!!!LET ME KNOW

MISS MOMMY

WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON? HAS ANYONE CHECKED ABOUT SEX OFFENDERS NEAR YOUR HOUSE.WELL I HAVE AND I COULD LITERALLY THROW A BALL AND HIT TWO OF THE HOUSES. I WOULD HAVE NEVER KNOWN IF SOMEONE FROM MYSPACE WOULD NOT HAVE SENT ME A LINK. WHAT IS SCARY IS I LIVE 7 HOUSES AWAY FROMAN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL AND A FEW MORE FROM A JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOL AND THOSE KIDS WALK HOME(THE MAJORITY OF THEM). WHEN YOU WALK OUT OF THE SCHOOL DOORS YOU COULD GO DOWN THE STEPS AND A FEW HOUSES AND SIT ON THE MANS LAWN. THAT UPSETS ME SO FREAKIN BAD.I GOT THREE GIRLS AND I GOTTA MAKE SURE MY DOORS ARE ALWAYS LOCKED AND KEEP THEM IN OUR FENCED BACK YARD,NEVER LETTING THEM PLAY IN FRONT WITH OTHER KIDS.FORGET IT I AM NOT TALING THE WHATEVER PERCENT CHANCE THAT HAPPEN TO MY KIDS.THEY OUGHT TO PUT THOSE SICK NUTS AWAY FROM SCHOOLS AND HAND DELIVER NOTICES TO EVERYONE IN SURROUNDING AREAS OF A SEX OFFENDER. DOES ANYONE AGREE / DISAGREE? OH I AM H=JUST FUMING RIGHT NOW.

MISS MOMMY

AM I CRAZY OR IS EVERYTHING THESE DAYS JUSY SO FREAKIN BORING OR REDUNDANT? I AM ON THIS NEVERENDING ROUTINE AND I FEEL INSANE. WHAT DO NORMAL PEOPLE DO AFTER THEY LOSE SOMEONE TO DEATH AND THEN THEY LOSE THEIR SPOUSE WHICH TO ME FEELS LIKE A TYPE OF DEATH ALSO. HOW DOES ONE START TO LIVE.I CANT HARDLY MAKE MYSELF GET THE COURAGE TO STAY CURRENT ON GROCERY SHOPPING. I MEAN LIFE HAS TO GO ON CAUSE I HAVE KIDS BUT I LITERALLY ONLY DO WHAT I HAVE TO. ANYONE UNDERSTAND? PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

MISS MOMMY

You know I am wondering where my life has snuck off to. No really!! The day to day actions I perform is not my life"OR IS IT" very scarrrry.I hope that I have not been programmed by living in "THE SURVIVAL MODE" FOR SO LONG, to be this person Ive become. I find myself boring. lazy, so so undecisive( or scared to make a bad decision) and what is scary is Im actually in charge of other people and really hope that my faults , my choice of a way to still exist without being totally crushed and heartbroken every second of the day,doesnt affect my chidren in the longrun.I have always been a survivor and to a degree thats good but It's a smart trait to earn if you know how to change back into normal mode but I have lived for so long in Fast Forward that I cant seem to stop, play,or even pause and try to regroup.Allright enough. Love all you guys.TTYL

Miss Mommy 

DOES ANYONE KNOW TRULY WHAT HEALS A BROKEN HEART? I DONT KNOW. I THINK THERE ARE DIFFERENT KINDS OF BROKEN HEART. WHAT MAKES A PERSON EXCEPT THAT LIFE IS JUST WHAT IT IS. PLEASE TELL ME YOU GUYS!!!

MISS MOMMY