Having just eaten in a dining hall filled with mostly people who are three years younger than me I can see that I have grown.


Blah Blah Blah

I could overhear people's problems and stories while I ate dinner tonight and can't help but describe how insignificant they are. The table of girls to the side of me was bickering about how their friend (who was not sitting with them) hadn't been hanging out with them for the past ___ of weeks and how they thought it was unfair. They complained that the girl's excuse of having a lot of work to do and trying to meet paper deadlines were unacceptable. They all then collaborated on what one girl should say to the friend over the phone and I heard the whiny conversation that followed. This went on back and forth amongst this group of girls, whose main priorities included partying and frat houses.

I couldn't help but relate to the girl who was 'too busy' to hang out with the group. It's almost the same tale I lived out my first few years at college and how one group of friends simply stopped haggling me to come out after a while and began to get along without me.

~AKG


Daily Desires:
-Stabillity
-Sanity
-Symmetry

There’s something about writing that used to grab my attention. I read my past blogs and I can see something lurking below the text that almost screams ’talent!’ This could of course could just be my biased point of view.


Anthans: The new me?
Because I spend half of my devoted hours out of the week at work my job has become an entire half of my life. Also, I might add, it has become the dominant half of my life, sometimes overshadowing the importance of my first job while attending USC, the role of being a student.

While working in the past three months I have acquired the nickname ’Anthans.’ It’s funny really, how I’ve acquired so many nicknames throughout my lifetime. Here’s a list:
-Anthony
-Antonio
-Tree
-Boom
-Anchovies
-Chovies
-Chonies
-Chones
-Ant Eater
-Antonio Banderas
-Tony
-Antuan
-Antny
-Double A
-Ant Dawg
-AnthoKnowledGee
-Waldo
-Mr. Anthony
& of course...
-Anthans

It’s great, I like it. Whenever somebody you don’t know calls you by one of your nicknames, it’s flattering. I’ve grown particularly attached to Anthans lately, it’s just so out there. Lately it’s the name I use at Starbucks or whenever I’m making a reservation at a restaurant.

I’m just a little concerned that the route of Anthans is really where I want my life going right now. As it stands right now I’m having way too good of time during my last semester of college. In a month and a half I’ll be walking across that stage (a deception really, seeing as how I still have another sememster to complete while studying abroad in the fall; which brings me to my next point).

Hong Kong: The International Encounter
Living in Hong Kong for four months, how sweet is that going to be?! I feel so fortunate to be afforded the opportunity to study abroad in another country. Through working many hours at work lately I have been saving money for what is anticipated to be an expensive trip. I also need to find an internship [worthwhile] this summer so I can save that money, too.

All the meanwhile I’m still waiting for my passport application go through so I can go ahead and apply for my visa already (I guess they don’t take mastercard, whatever). Prior to studying abroad I hope to get in some practice of the native language spoken there, Cantonese. Although I have’nt foudn the time lately to begin learning it I could definitely cut back on some unnecessary activities I’ve been engaging in lately.

Lack of Actions cause Distractions
I’ve been in a bind lately: Having too much fun! It’s a good thing that most of my classes are ’for fun’ so to say. Well, at least tennis and swimming. The only class that I really have to do work for is my Strategic Management class, the last of my required business classes. Because of my light academic load I have felt the relief in being able to engage in more leisure activities. I have returned to my first love fairly recently, the wonderful world of video games. I can’t get enough of Halo 3 and it’s why I’m up at 4:00 AM right now.

I’ve quit other things in the past that weren’t ’good for me’ [so to say] and this looks like something I’m going to have to tone down as well. I have a very intense interview coming up next week for a summer internship and it’s going to require my 100%. This means that I’m going to have to limit my distractions down to one [maybe two] if I want to succeed at this interview. The preparation is going to include doing some very indepenet research while also reviewing Spanish in hopes to becoming a proficient speaker.

It feels good to have someone supporting me on this.

Signing Off til’....
Who knows. I tell myself that I’ll continue to document my thoughts but I can’t be certain if blogging will become regular once again. It sure has helped me clear some things in my head though. Thanks for reading.

~AKG


Daily Desires:
-Regular sleeping pattern
-200
-Owning up
-Securing an internship
-$$$

Relationships
by Anthony Avila


I'm having some serious relationship issues,
But not with a loved one that would normally involve tear wept tissues,
Instead, it's with those who are in my daily happenings that I normally ensue.
It's become clear to me that nobody will see me unless it is I who pursue.

Pursuing something beyond the casual "hey how are you today?"
Now when you ask me that, do you want the long version or the short version?
The short version of okay, good, alright, whatever, tired, fine,
Or some other adjective that will make my answer less yours than it is mine.
When I'm never really attached to these shortened diversions of sharing you, my mind.

I want to pursue something beyond the empty "hey how was your weekend?"
And not being able to describe in detail the nothingness of the time I did spend.
I'm sorry I can't go on ski trips or venture to other countries on the weekly,
Instead I'd rather arrange a get together locally, where you could meet me,
And we could enjoy,
A weekend together,
So as to not annoy,
When that dreadful empty question is prompted to be asked of one another.

Why not make a weekend together?
Outside of the workplace walls,
the school fences,
and organization boundaries.
This (among other things) is a desire that can be found in me.


~AKG

Failure
By Anthony Avila

 
Sometimes, failure is all I truly know.
It's what keeps me from progressing, but still on the go.
To me, failing has become very normal,
A relaxed acquaintance, nothing formal.

Failing is what I'm best at, it didn't always used to be this way.

Why way way back in the day, I was on top of my game.

Of course I mean to say, back when my biggest problem was how long to play.

Everything is so different now, life comes at you fast.
From one day winning spelling bees to now pursuing an uncertain career path.

I can't do well in a subject if everyday I feel like I'm fudgin' it.

Why do I feel the greatest joys in classes that aren't apart of my major?
I've tested these feelings out multiple times; that I've made sure.

~AKG

Everyone needs to check out my newest dance video on YouTube; the best website around.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ea6SuMU0A1k

Why do some nights yield easier sleep than others?

So do I! I've been awake for the past (counting on fingers, wait, I only have 10 of them!) 19 hours. What a trip! And mind you they have all been very productive hours. Why, I even made it to my 8 'oclock class this morning. A class that I wasn't able to make at all last week! Attendance seems to speak louder to professors that all else. It shows them that you care about class and that you possess the discipline to volunteerily arrive to class, even if your grade does not solely depend on it.