...Well things never last...and more and more I start to think I really am not supposed to be happy..I mean he was just like the rest.And yet everyone wonders why I cant trust people at all, I mean damn you must think Im fucking stupid. I caught you in the whole lie and you still tried pushing it back at me...

Anyways I know now that im pretty much scared, I took that chance and got hurt again. Im so sick of it, Ever since me and Dustin split i havnt been able to stay in a relationship and I cant figure out why....I know my cousin wanted us to get back together, but I wasnt the one that broke it off he was so, I couldnt make that choice...So yea here I am writeing this blog, to pretty much say I have no idea what to do anymore.


For once id like to just be happy without having to think well this is going to crash and burn now...


Kim

Darkness has consumed,coldness seeping in, I am numb.

I have no feeling, only hunger.

Broken with empty eyes.

 

Breaking threw the dirt, to only find my first kill. Poor poor helpless soul, so lost in the world, I am bringing them pain,only to end there life shortly after. I am your worst nightmare, the zombie that brings pain to your pathetic life.

She sits in her corner, not able to move..shocked by the air, chilled to the bone..

she can no longer feel..tears role down her face,.she wishes it was over that the pain would just end..

no more sorrow, no more pain..one last breath..one last stand. and one last fall..

she wishes it was all that easy..she pushes,and pushes past the doubt and hate.

can she face the one.. can she look them in the eyes and say.. you did hurt me no matter how much she wants to say its not true it hurts..

pain grows and grows cant stand it anymore..afraid to see them afraid to be alone..

 

 

This time I cant lie
youve stolen everything from me
from my Sanity, to my dignity
why do i let you do it..

Forsaken, your taken my last breath
my Love for you is all i have left...
take back everything
take back everything

OK, that was somthin i wrote a while back i just thought about putting it up on here... its not much but i never got done with it..

KiMmIe

lifes to short for all this drama, and i truthfully dont care, live every day likes its ur last b/c the next day you could be gone.. or sent to a far away land.. and i guess what I HAVE IDEAS!!!

To everyone that ive ever hurt..im sorry from the depths of my heart.I hope that you all could forgive me but at times I don't think that you could..

Jessica M,you say you forgive me about that whole Bryan thing but I dont think that you have..we used to be great friends but now it seems if we didnt have a class together you would forget who I am...and it really does hurt,im sorry I hurt you..I wish I could take it back but I know I cant.I guess thats why you dont have me on your top list or your friends thingy off to the side..

Well Cheers to the times eh people!!

Kimmie

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

 

 

Relient K: Be mY eScape

 

I just thought id put it up!! have fun ya'll

Kimmie